My Autistic Ramblings

boxman said:
Just shoot Connor Howard in the head and he stops being a problem. They have to find a new guy to be the new problem.

But shooting Connor Howard in the head solves an immediate problem permanently. Just shoot Connor Howard in the head and murder him.

In Minecraft.
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Yeah we should genuinely put a 308 hollowpoint in his heart in Roblox so he stops causing problems for everyone, same with Reggie, skayjos, wicker, goonclown, etc.
 
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MoonMetropolis said:
Recently, I discovered the Trollge/dark trollface memes, which are usually like this:

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These memes are, obviously, meant as ironic pitch-black humor, but I can still very much relate to them. They reflect the meaninglessness and emptiness of being alive on this miserable planet.

I should note that I was not raised religious. My fixation on existential questions is just typical autism on my part. It, of course, intensified following my arrest. When you're locked in a room by yourself for extended periods of time with absolutely nothing to entertain you, you, of course, tend to retreat into your thoughts. The non-stop existential dread that I always felt was simply made a million times worse by prison and especially by solitary confinement.
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discovered them only JUST NOW?
That was a thing in like 2018 dude
And it's so far devolved by now that it's turned into whatever this shit is:
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I HATE THE ANTICHRIST will remain an eternal classic doe
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MoonMetropolis said:
Can you be more specific?
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Moral nihilism is the idea that objective morality doesn’t exist. (Most moral nihilists don’t 100% reject morality, obviously most aren’t ok with things like murder or rape).
political nihilism is the rejection of all political ideals.
What I’m asking is essentially if you’re a nihilist in more ways than just not believing that life has any meaning.

As a more clear example I can give my feelings on these.
Moral nihilism: I think that most morality is made up to keep people enslaved. The idea that you shouldn’t covet and that you need to think of everyone’s best when trying to make money and so on only exist to prevent people from being anything other than obedient subjects for the elites. I do however recognize that obviously violent crime is bad and wrong.

Political nihilism: I think that political parties and elections only exist as a distraction and that all politicians are bought by various corporation owners and work for their agenda. This means that I completely refuse to take part in all elections and political processes.

I hope that made it clearer. I’m terrible at explaining things.
 
MoonMetropolis said:
Not yet, but I am definitely interested. What writings of theirs should I start with?
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I would say start with the recent Mainlander, Philosophy of Redemption (I've been a fan of the guy for many years but the only english translations were partial and incomplete, it got a good english translation in 2024), the book is not that big, but you can also watch the videos on youtube to give you a quick overview of what these people believed in, Schopenhauer is a bit bigger with his The World as Will and Representation, Mainlander was a student of Schopenhauer so they are both similar, with Mainlander expanding on Schopenhauer
They are both quite pessimistic and nihilistic in a way talking about life's inherent meaninglessness, if you can't stomach the books there are many youtube videos on both of them
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265121297 said:
Political nihilism: I think that political parties and elections only exist as a distraction and that all politicians are bought by various corporation owners and work for their agenda. This means that I completely refuse to take part in all elections and political processes.
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Is this where the "nothing ever happens" stems from?
 
TurkRoach said:
Is this where the "nothing ever happens" stems from?
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No. “Nothing ever happens” is more noticing that the media tends to blow fairly minor events out of proportions and make it seem like something massive is happening when in real life, it’s not that big of a deal. Political nihilism is a refusal to take part in any political system because none of them benefit you. It’s often summed up as “wanting to destroy the current system without proposing an alternative”.

Edit: I accidentally wrote political realism instead of political nihilism. Realism is something else.
 
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Goot said:
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discovered them only JUST NOW?
That was a thing in like 2018 dude
And it's so far devolved by now that it's turned into whatever this shit is:
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I was in prison in 2018.

265121297 said:
Moral nihilism is the idea that objective morality doesn’t exist. (Most moral nihilists don’t 100% reject morality, obviously most aren’t ok with things like murder or rape).
political nihilism is the rejection of all political ideals.
What I’m asking is essentially if you’re a nihilist in more ways than just not believing that life has any meaning.

As a more clear example I can give my feelings on these.
Moral nihilism: I think that most morality is made up to keep people enslaved. The idea that you shouldn’t covet and that you need to think of everyone’s best when trying to make money and so on only exist to prevent people from being anything other than obedient subjects for the elites. I do however recognize that obviously violent crime is bad and wrong.

Political nihilism: I think that political parties and elections only exist as a distraction and that all politicians are bought by various corporation owners and work for their agenda. This means that I completely refuse to take part in all elections and political processes.

I hope that made it clearer. I’m terrible at explaining things.
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I think that all morality is essentially meaningless. It's all invented by humans, and it all varies wildly depending on what culture one grew up in (and, of course, depending on the circumstances). With that said, I do not deliberately try to be cruel or sadistic, and I have nothing but contempt for those who do.

I've often espoused an extremely eclectic array of wildly incompatible political ideologies, ranging from far-right to far-left, basically just trying my best to always be as iconoclastic, contrarian, and mugwumpian as possible and to always disagree with whoever I was arguing with at the time. There really is no political ideology that I do not hold in the utmost contempt, which is about as nihilistic as it gets.

Swede said:
I would say start with the recent Mainlander, Philosophy of Redemption (I've been a fan of the guy for many years but the only english translations were partial and incomplete, it got a good english translation in 2024), the book is not that big, but you can also watch the videos on youtube to give you a quick overview of what these people believed in, Schopenhauer is a bit bigger with his The World as Will and Representation, Mainlander was a student of Schopenhauer so they are both similar, with Mainlander expanding on Schopenhauer
They are both quite pessimistic and nihilistic in a way talking about life's inherent meaninglessness, if you can't stomach the books there are many youtube videos on both of them
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I just watched this video on Mainlander, as I had not heard of him before:


One of the comments stood out to me:

The part about a utopian State reminded me a little bit of Dostoevsky's observation in "Notes from Underground": that if man had nothing to do but eat and procreate and didn't have to strive for anything, in perfect bliss - he would smash it all to pieces just to reassert his agency in the world; in essence, so that something would happen.
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I think that that is, sadly, extremely accurate. There will never be a utopian society because it is simply incompatible with human nature. If heaven existed, we would ultimately destroy it, just like we have destroyed every single heaven on earth.

Have you ever heard of Thomas Ligotti or Emil Cioran? They are apparently quite similar.
 
MoonMetropolis said:
I think that all morality is essentially meaningless. It's all invented by humans, and it all varies wildly depending on what culture one grew up in (and, of course, depending on the circumstances). With that said, I do not deliberately try to be cruel or sadistic, and I have nothing but contempt for those who do.

I've often espoused an extremely eclectic array of wildly incompatible political ideologies, ranging from far-right to far-left, basically just trying my best to always be as iconoclastic, contrarian, and mugwumpian as possible and to always disagree with whoever I was arguing with at the time. There really is no political ideology that I do not hold in the utmost contempt, which is about as nihilistic as it gets.
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Your views on political nihilism are the same as mine but much better phrased.
Our view on morality is also pretty much the same. The difference being that you don’t seem think that morality was invented in order to keep people down whereas I do.
 
265121297 said:
Your views on political nihilism are the same as mine but much better phrased.
Our view on morality is also pretty much the same. The difference being that you don’t seem think that morality was invented in order to keep people down whereas I do.
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Oh, I for sure think that most morality was invented to keep people down - particularly petty morality like the kind proliferated by Abrahamic religions. Abrahamic religion has been, without a doubt, the single most destructive and oppressive force in all of human history.
 
MoonMetropolis said:
Oh, I for sure think that most morality was invented to keep people down - particularly petty morality like the kind proliferated by Abrahamic religions. Abrahamic religion has been, without a doubt, the single most destructive and oppressive force in all of human history.
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Happy to see that we agree on that as well then. Abrahamic religions are the epitome of slave morality and have never benefited anyone.
 
MoonMetropolis said:
Have you ever heard of Thomas Ligotti or Emil Cioran? They are apparently quite similar.
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Cioran is great, I like him a lot, he tries to tackle much of the same questions, nihilism, despair and life's meaninglessness and critics human made constructs like religion, morality and philosophy as things that try and hide away the true nature of what we're feeling, he also talks about the futile pursuit of happiness much like Schopenhauer. That were kinda his themes, if you want try to read his On The Heights of Despair and The New Gods (if you google "the new gods" without mentioning the author it gives you some marvel slop btw :)))) ) but it's been a while since I've read him.
I didn't know about Ligotti, I'll see if I can get the paperback of his The Conspiracy Against the Human Race 2010 book, it seems promising
 
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I finally got skajyos's illegal CSAM site removed from Archive.org. However, it remains up on Archive.today. I'm still working on getting that shit removed. I'm not publicly saying the name of the site for obvious reasons.

Also, I got two more foodist Discord servers shut down:

https://I'M A NIGGER!!!map

https://I'M A NIGGER!!!EJvjJCad
 
One of my brothers recently moved out of our parents' house and got his own house, yet it's only reminded me of how utterly bleak and meaningless life is. I mean, he's working a shitty wage slave job that he hates so that he can spend the rest of his life paying off the mortgage on his ramshackle town house. Is that really what being an adult is all about? Is that really what life is all about? Go to school, find a job, pay off debt, climb the ladder, vacation for two weeks, pay off mortgage, die? I really don't know how anyone with a functioning brain can live in this world and not want to kill themselves.

Today, I felt more emotion than I've felt in a long time (although all of it was negative, of course - as always). When I was arrested, my family had three dogs. Two of them died while I was in prison. The last one was still alive when I got out, but she was old and frail and demented. Even so, I became closer to her than I ever was to her prior to my arrest. I was her person, and she would always come get me to let her outside over and over again (all day and all night, consistently). She lived so long only because I did such a great job taking care of her after my release from prison. As her quality of life deteriorated further and further, however, my mother decided that it was time to have her evaluated by a vet, who would make a decision about whether to euthanize her. The vet, unsurprisingly, decided that it was time to have her put down. Today and in the days leading up to today, we fed her lots of food that she loved (like ice cream and burgers), and she died surrounded by all of her people (along with the other animals that my family currently has). I petted her the whole time, kissed her on the nose, said goodbye to her, and closed her eyelids before we buried her in the backyard (after getting a paw print and a little bit of her fur to keep). Apparently, one of the cats meowed at the exact second that the dog died, although I didn't hear it. I miss her already, as it simply won't be the same without her begging me to let her out every half hour or so. Today, I cried more than I have in a long time, and I really hate the fact that I am only capable of feeling negative emotions.
 
Summary of italian elite theory, fathers of it are Vilfredo Pareto and Gaetano Mosca
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Feel like it politics make so much more sense trying to comprehend it through this lens, I am in agreement, thoughts?

Also if you would rather have me ask elsewhere tell me, thought about posting on your profile but character limit is annoying to me and wanted you not to have to deal with that + cooldown and give you free reign to use as many or few words as you felt like, + it's more interesting that everyone gets to take a peek. Been asking Baqqrih some questions about theology in DM but i'll start doing that on his bloggrih page aswell so others can see too. Cus its like fun to ask questions and im sure others find reading answers fun too.
 
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