If I believed in God (or pretended to believe in God), then I would just be lying to myself. God is a bluepill; a coping mechanism for people who can't handle the harsh realities of life.
Now that im thinking back on this philosopher, nigga was an ancient NEET. He would definitely rot on 4cuck all day if he lived today. Btw, I'm not really trying to force my religion on you, just offering a solution for your feelings of nihilism and meaninglessness.