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March 2nd, 2025: Another day at work today, I texted Angela at 6:33am saying:
>Goodmorning cutie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Breakfast was more cereal and I posted on the Booru a bit before heading out. Angela texted me at 8:27am saying:
<Hiii good morning ❤️❤️💋
I flirted back a bit before I had to take the bus to work, I chilled in the break room for a bit before clocking in and doing my tasks, I worked on mostly stocking the shelf and got really frustrated at customers who couldn’t be fucking bothered to move when I say:“excuse me!”
I stocked the shelves a bit more and I saw fAsherah and her fiancée again with them holding hands a few times. For my first break I bought these out of date pastry things coated in white chocolate and I ate one, I ended up giving the other 5 to the other coworkers, which included fAsherah, the short girl from the bakery, Jesse, Mr. Blundstone, and one of the office ladies. The original owner of the store and his friend Mr. Medici arrive there and they offer to get me some lunch for free and he tells me to get one of the cashiers to talk to him once he could get a break. I get a pull ready and then go down to order my food, which ends up taking 15 minutes so I just face the store in the meantime. Angela sent me another picture of her dog! I got my lunch for free and found out that the original owner of the store is turning 95 on March 20th so there will probably be a celebration for him. I texted Joseph:
>I think I'll be going to the mass at (Church I don’t usually go to that has evening mass earlier) tonight because I have homework due tomorrow.
He replied:
<Ok thanks
I eat my lunch and then stock the shelves for a bit longer before I have to start on closings. I get out just in time for the bus and when I get on it, I end up seeing this guy who I will be calling James the Lesser. In contrast to James the Greater, the guy I plan on rooming with, I knew James the Lesser because Asherah told me he was weird, he called Corona the “China virus” and she said he was creepy and had to tell him to leave her alone or something. I text Asherah:
>James spotted on the bus
And then realized that she didn’t respond. I saw that Angela had left me on read and the only other texts I had were from those automated bots reminding me about registering to vote which made me feel depressed about how little friends I had. I got into mass and started praying to my patron saint, Saint Ambrose of Milan about just having more friends and social opportunities. Mass started up and we went through the normal order of stuff, the priest looked really young. By the time it came around to collecting the money, they did it with baskets attached to poles instead of normal baskets like at my church, I put in a dollar and decided to go to the bathroom, I was blocked by the two ushers walking downtown the main aisle so I decided to head down the right aisle (from my perspective) and I ended up seeing none other than Asherah’s roommate Zephyr. She waved at me first, I was honestly taken aback because I always thought she despised me. I went to the bathroom and then went back, at the end I saw an announcement about how the priest was starting up mass that was ad orientem next week. I walked out and then ran to the bus stop in time. I had this conversation with Angela on the way back.
<I just took a loooooong unscheduled nap
>Why thought sweetie?
<I’ve been feeling a little blegh today
<Might be coming down with something

>The cold??
>Noooooooooooooooooooo

<There was a lot of people at ASD, someone of em definitely were sick and just walking around. Spreading disease
<There were also some ridiculously cute babies

>Wait where was this???
<Admitted student day, yesterday
<Mostly in the [building on campus]
<People brought babies, grandparents, little siblings of admitted students

>You said babies so I was confused where you were at?
<It’s a big all day event, people bring babies 🤷‍♀️
>They should at least make sure they aren’t sick!
>Wait are you feeling any better?

<My throat is scratchy and my head hurts
>Please drink plenty of water!!!!
<Don’t worry, I’m on it
<And I’ve been taking my vitamin C
<
❤️
>How does the vitamin C taste?
<Blegh
<But it’s not a chewable, so I only have to taste it for a moment before swallowing it

I then had ramen for dinner along with a shot of limoncello and then started working on my machine learning assignment I had due tomorrow at 1:00pm and managed to make a decent chunk of progress before I had to go to sleep. I took a shower and then went to sleep.

Song of the Day: Bella Bella Signorina - Patrizio Buanne (2006)
 
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March 3rd, 2025: Back to school. When I woke up I sent Angela a good morning text and she asked me if morning wood is real, I said yes, she then asked me to elaborate if it was a daily occurence or just something that happens every so often, I said occasionally and then she asked if it goes away on its own, to which I answered yes it does. I started off the school day by with working on this homework for my Machine Learning class, I was running into issues where it would complete the binary classification analysis of this dataset about a company in India's turnover rate over a period of 40 months and then never work on the regression data (predicting the mean temperature of a day in Izmir, Turkiye.) I got that all done before I decided to head to the coffee shop and get some coffee by paying in dimes, I lucked out because the barista didn't rage at me for paying with coins. I sat down in the coffee shop for a while and chilled out while they played from this playlist called lofi beats or something, working on my blog entry for the day. I heard someone at the bar say:
"Why he kinda look like Zoolander?"
followed by her friend replying:
"I Agree!"
I felt like they were talking about me and my fake leather jacket
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(Picture of me above)
I heard them say Lolcow and heard the two ladies talk about fat women. I posted about the ordeal on Xitter and @ScientoloJü replied to me with:
<this image is so aryan it made my cock white again #ThankYou #Blessed
I went back home for a bit before heading to my first class of the day. My stomach did not feel that good today so I scrounged around the building for a vending machine with ginger ale in it, I could not find one but I did find one with Starry (what they call Sierra Mist nowadays, I miss the old Sierra Mist) so I bought that and drank some to feel better. The first lecture was kind of boring so I just worked on inputting my family into this family tree program that I had. After the lecture is done I walk over to my second lecture and get waved to by Padma, I am pretty bored in that class but I eventually get out and drink a can of vegetable soup for dinner. I head to my art class early to finish my second nōtan piece in art class, along the way I have another encounter with Pen Guy and he gives me his free pens along with his religious handout, I got to the art class and started cutting stuff out for the second art piece, in the end it looked sort of like a bird and Angela thought it was pretty cool. It turns out that I was supposed to bring cut out pictures to start working on this art project with but I didn't so I just whipped up a few for now. I walked over to the printer in another building and printed 3 things before heading back and tracing an image of my cat (the nice one, not the mean one) for a while. I eventually got done and decided to head down to this event that was happening, I realized that I had a bunch of stuff and nowhere to put it, I decided to walk back home, along the way I saw Enosh and he asked me:
"Oh hey Gemerson, do you want to go to the event tonight?"
I replied:
"Yes, I'm just dropping my stuff off at home."
I get home and drop my stuff off at home before I head back to the event, on the way there I was thinking to myself about how Israel and it's national intelligence agency Mossad just loves to sabotage their own allies, when I get there I find out that they won't allow people to enter anymore, unusual for one of the campus events. Must have been because I committed wrongthink, I went to the convenience store and bought some Takis. I saw they had some non-spicy ranch flavored takis on a steep discount so I got a bag of those. I then got back and drank two shots of limoncello while watching some Family Guy. When getting some milk from the refrigerator I accidentally knocked this near-empty glass jar of salsa off the shelf and it shattered, so I swept it up and mopped the kitchen. I eventually got done and decided to take a shower at 9:00pm. I didn't lock the door to Enosh's room because I thought that he was not at home. I didn't turn on the lights because I needed some darkness to relax a bit. After a bit Enosh tried to enter the bathroom and I yelled at him to get out, I mean I didn’t lock the door but holy cannoli can you not hear the shower on? I can hear whenever you take a shower and talk to yourself there. I got out and then had this text exchange with Angela:
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Transcript:
<I have a question
>Yes
<What's your stance on the whole 'no premarital sex' thing
<Because I don't want to get in the way of you deepening your faith, but at some point, I would like to have sex with you

>I'm not really interested in having sex before marriage. Sorry.
<Thank you for your candor.
<I won’t lie to you, but this does shine some light on some incompatibilities. I like you, I really do, but we’re not aligned on some big things.

>Aligned on some big things? I’m confused on what you’re saying.
>You’re welcome!

<So, I’m not Catholic anymore; Your faith is very important to you. I think it’s beautiful that you’re deepening your relationship with God, but I have no interest to do the same.
>Why aren’t you Catholic anymore, when did this whole thing happen?
<I haven’t been an observant Catholic for years now. There’s some history and baggage there.
<I don’t think we’re right for each other. I think it’d be best if we end our relationship.

>Ok I’m so sorry things couldn’t work out!
<I wish you the best
>I wish you the best too!

Wow…

Song of the Day: My Treat - Trish Alien (2024)
 
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March 3rd, 2025: Back to school. When I woke up I sent Angela a good morning text and she asked me if morning wood is real, I said yes, she then asked me to elaborate if it was a daily occurence or just something that happens every so often, I said occasionally and then she asked if it goes away on its own, to which I answered yes it does. I started off the school day by with working on this homework for my Machine Learning class, I was running into issues where it would complete the binary classification analysis of this dataset about a company in India's turnover rate over a period of 40 months and then never work on the regression data (predicting the mean temperature of a day in Izmir, Turkiye.) I got that all done before I decided to head to the coffee shop and get some coffee by paying in dimes, I lucked out because the barista didn't rage at me for paying with coins. I sat down in the coffee shop for a while and chilled out while they played from this playlist called lofi beats or something, working on my blog entry for the day. I heard someone at the bar say:
"Why he kinda look like Zoolander?"
followed by her friend replying:
"I Agree!"
I felt like they were talking about me and my fake leather jacket
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(Picture of me above)
I heard them say Lolcow and heard the two ladies talk about fat women. I posted about the ordeal on Xitter and @ScientoloJü replied to me with:
<this image is so aryan it made my cock white again #ThankYou #Blessed
I went back home for a bit before heading to my first class of the day. My stomach did not feel that good today so I scrounged around the building for a vending machine with ginger ale in it, I could not find one but I did find one with Starry (what they call Sierra Mist nowadays, I miss the old Sierra Mist) so I bought that and drank some to feel better. The first lecture was kind of boring so I just worked on inputting my family into this family tree program that I had. After the lecture is done I walk over to my second lecture and get waved to by Padma, I am pretty bored in that class but I eventually get out and drink a can of vegetable soup for dinner. I head to my art class early to finish my second nōtan piece in art class, along the way I have another encounter with Pen Guy and he gives me his free pens along with his religous handout, I got to the art class and started cutting stuff out for the second art piece, in the end it looked sort of like a bird and Angela thought it was pretty cool. It turns out that I was supposed to bring cut out pictures to start working on this art project with but I didn't so I just whipped up a few for now. I walked over to the printer in another building and printed 3 things before heading back and tracing an image of my cat (the nice one, not the mean one) for a while. I eventually got done and decided to head down to this event that was happening, I realied that I had a bunch of stuff and nowhere to put it, I decided to walk back home, along the way I saw Enosh and he asked me:"Oh hey Gemerson, do you want to go to the event tonight?"
I replied:
"Yes, I'm just dropping my stuff off at home."
I get home and drop my stuff off at home before I head back to the event, on the way there I was thinking to myself about how Israel and it's national intelligence agency Mossad just loves to sabotage their own allies, when I get there I find out that they won't allow people to enter anymore, unusual for one of the campus events. Must have been because I committed wrongthink, I went to the convenience store and bought some Takis, I saw they had some non-spicy ranch flavored takis on a steep discount so I got a bag of those. I then got back and drank two shots of limoncello while watching some Family Guy. When getting some milk from the refrigerator I accidentally knocked this near-empty glass jar of salsa off the shelf and it shattered, so I swept it up and mopped the kitchen. I eventually got done and decided to take a shower at 9:00pm, I didn't lock the door to Enosh's room because I thought that he was not at home. I didn't turn on the lights because I needed some darkness to go relax a bit, after a bit Enosh tries to enter the bathroom and I yelled at him to get out, I mean I didn’t lock the door but holy cannoli can you not hear the shower on? I can hear whenever you take a shower and talk to yourself there. I got out and then had this text exchange with Angela:
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Transcript:
<I have a question
>Yes
<What's your stance on the whole 'no premarital sex' thing
<Because I don't want to get in the way of you deepening your faith, but at some point, I would like to have sex with you

>I'm not really interested in having sex before marriage. Sorry.
<Thank you for your candor.
<I won’t lie to you, but this does shine some light on some incompatibilities. I like you, I really do, but we’re not aligned on some big things.

>Aligned on some big things? I’m confused on what you’re saying.
>You’re welcome!

<So, I’m not Catholic anymore; Your faith is very important to you. I think it’s beautiful that you’re deepening your relationship with God, but I have no interest to do the same.
>Why aren’t you Catholic anymore, when did this whole thing happen?
<I haven’t been an observant Catholic for years now. There’s some history and baggage there.
<I don’t think we’re right for each other. I think it’d be best if we end our relationship.

>Ok I’m so sorry things couldn’t work out!
<I wish you the best
>I wish you the best too!

Wow…

Song of the Day: My Treat - Trish Alien (2024)
>not being a catholic
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March 4th, 2025: Another day of classes, I woke up and completed all the German assignments that I had due before class today at 11:30am, it was just a test about describing the members of my family in German, I got done with that and then I realized that I had a test for my second class today so I just hastily start writing down stuff from the quiz guide and looking it up whenever I needed to do so (the professor forgot to remove like half of the answers to the example questions) to fit it on a third of a standard sized piece of paper. I walked to my German class and along the way I saw the Dungeon Master from my 3.5th edition game and he said:
"Oh my God Gemerson!"
Another guy was handing out fliers for his Christian organization, I saw him and he passed one out to me and said:
"If you died today would you go to heaven?"
German class was boring and we just interviewed a partner. I wasn't partnered with Quentin but with another person, I then presented his answers as he presented mine before we were dismissed and I walked to my next class, I got an energy drink and then walked to my next class for the test. The other people in my group were there and then the test started, I remember this one guy in my class who is clearly Autistic that was in my freshman year programming class who would always bring in a bottle of Pepsi to drink, he talked with me one time about how he contributed to MelonDS's support for Nintendo DS extensions. He was really upset:
"You don't understand, I messed up, I didn't memorize the stuff yet."
He was getting more upset until this guy just said:
"Hey, can you shut the fuck up?"
Chapelle and I nearly burst out laughing but I then continued working on my test, I got out early and decided to walk back to this thing where Punk was, they were giving out hot liquids so I went over to them and got a cup of hot chocolate and they offered me this thing for Wednesday breakfast events, but I already go to a different event then so it won't work out. I then went to this Dungeon Master training event. It was worse than I thought because there wasn't much of value and there were so many pieces of horrible SJW art in the presentation, but I managed to win a set of dice because I rolled a 19 on my roll at the start. After that event I decided to head out to the Tuesday mass thing for Mardi Gras, I got in and didn't have anybody sit next to me sadly and the mass was ok. After that we went upstairs for dinner, which was a bunch of breakfast stuff and I ended up eating a lot. I sat with the Honduran, Henry, Reuben, Gabriel, and this Jewish guy, I talk about getting broken up with over premarital sex and the Honduran tells me to tell the Jewish guy about it because he is having dating issues, he finds it funny and I make a joke about how Mossad won't let him get a wife as revenge for turning to Christ. I get a bag of pancakes, some syrup, a bag of salad, and a half gallon of milk. I head home and put some of the stuff in the refrigerator while seeing Enosh taking a covid test. I walked back to this board game event and sat in on a game while drinking the milk. Nobody really made the effort to talk to me first so I just left because I didn't feel welcome. I got back home, took a shower, and went to sleep.

Song of the Day: Little Queen - Heart (1977)
 
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March 5th, 2025: First thing that I had for breakfast was 5 pancakes I got from yesterday with some syrup before I walked over to the Catholic house for Ash Wednesday mass. I ended up sitting behind Henry and his girlfriend while nobody ended up sitting next to me yet again, Kaitlyn and Rose were two rows behind me and sitting with this friend of theirs I have never seen before, I go through the mass and when I go up to get my ashes, the priest gets pretty stingy with mine so it was hardly visible. I stayed around after mass for a bit to meet her friend, she goes to the same college as all four of us. I end up heading home after like 6 minutes but take extra long to get home because I get distracted by all of the clogged drainage grates so I kicked the leaves off of them so they drain faster. I finally arrive at home and do some homework for my art class and then I head out to my first class but take a detour with the bag of pancakes and bottle of syrup to Asherah's workplace, I drop it off and only see 3 people inside, Asherah, her roommate who also loves Emerson Lake And Palmer, and this receptionist. Asherah looks at me weirdly so I went back in and said:
"This is for everybody to eat!"
She replied:
"Uh ok..."
"The pancakes, they're for everybody!"
I just left and ended up feeling like absolute shit, I absolutely overstayed my welcome and used up all of my social allowance with her, I will absolutely not go to any more of her food events and the next time I will go to an event I am pretty sure she is at will be the Celtic event night in late October. I transcribed my blog more before I got motivated enough to go outside and walk to this cookie decorating event at 3:00pm. I didn't feel really motivated or happy because of the whole Asherah event and I didn't see any of my friends there. I then went back home to grab some of my art stuff and then head back. I then signed up for this minifigure painting event but immediately went outside and just felt like shit for a while until I printed out my images and then went to my art class. In the art classroom the oldest guy in the class asked me to help him with opening photos in photoshop, I had to tell him to download the photos of 1960s art of women in bikinis to his computer from Google Drive and then open it in photoshop. I then took a walk outside to chill out and along the way this art teacher who was pinning stuff up on the wall, she dropped all her pins and I helped her collect them.
"Wow, the clear pins are so annoying because once you drop them, you can't see them!"
She says.
"Don't worry, I can spot them!"
I replied. I worked more on my cutout that was due on Monday and presented my art. What the teacher would do is divide the pieces off by tape and have the people who have their art in each group divided by the tape review the art together and then circle around to each one that was grouped off, I put mine up and the Ginger girl put hers up next to mine while this other curly-haired girl placed hers to the right of my 3 pieces, but when it came time to review the art, Kelechi decided that he would join our group even though he put up his art pieces up with another group. Kelechi was just being annoying throughout the whole thing and it really got on my nerves. We go over all the pieces and I get complimented on mine. After that I end up hearing Ginger talking about how she overheard this Bible study meeting at this coffee place I frequent, I asked her what day and she said she forgot, I mentioned that I know who they are and she thought it was nice. At 6:14 pm I got this Instagram message from this girl that I matched with on Hinge on April 4th, 2023 that said:
<gemerson why did we never go on that date
<we shoukd

>You never responded 👿👿👿👿
<i don’t recall…
<maybe i forgot

>Bruh!!!!!!!!!!
<bruhhh!!!!
<what now
🤔🤔
>Wanna go on a date?
<omg I thought you’d never ask!! 🤣
<yes
<let’s do it

>What time works for you?
>And day!

<i can do after 6pm on sunday and anytime Monday or Wednesday!! i would say these days upcoming but i just work late until Sunday
>Monday would work for me after 7:30pm
>Are you busy Friday?

<i work 1-10 on Friday, we can do before or after if you want
>So sometime before that?
<yeah that works for me!! what time do you think
After art class I headed back to the minifigure painting event and worked on painting an Elven Cleric, it was the first time ever that I have done this but I think I did ok for a first timer even though the paintjob was pretty sloppy.
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I walked home and was about to take a shower before I got a text from the Guatemalan begging for me to bring her alcohol, I had nothing to do so I went to a convenience store to look for it but I couldn't find it and I didn't have enough time to run to the liquor store before closing so I asked them if they wanted me to come over and hang out but I didn't get a response. The Guatemalan then texted me way later saying that I should come over now because she got done throwing up. I start walking over there when I see my old Dungeon Master and this girl I went to high school with, the latter of which I will be calling Monique, they both say hi to me and Monique asks me if I am going to see the play she is in, I sadly say I won't. I get over there and bring some Oreo ice cream sandwiches. The Guatemalan, her boyfriend, the Kazakhstani, Montana, and the Guatemalan's friend from high school were all there and we chilled for a bit while I played with Kip and Kelly. After a point I get offered shots and I say that I can't do it because I am giving up alcohol for Lent and how I mostly drink alone, the Guatemalan suddenly offers me a bag of these Kinder Egg like treats and then does an arm hug of me, talking about how I have been her friend for like 3 years and that I have been so for longer than she has been friends with the Kazakhstani because I was friends with her since before college while her and the Kazakhstani briefly didn't talk to her, I then walked home, took a shower, and went to sleep.

Song of the Day: May It Be - Enya (2001)
 
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