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May 2nd, 2025: Friday today, I went over to the convenience store to buy some milk first thing in the morning because we were all out, I then went over to the coffee shop because it said it was supposed to be open then but it wasn’t, that pissed me off a good amount. I bought a donut from elsewhere and then I went home to game for a while until it was 11:08am and I sent this text to the priest:
>Do you need me to acolyte for mass?
The priest replied at 11:36am with the message:
<Yes, please!
I then walked down there and got all dressed for mass and then lit the candles. For the mass there was a total of 3 men (1 adult and 2 college aged students, not counting me) and 8 women (3 adults and 5 college aged students. The priest made a joke about how there were twelve of us there for the 12 apostles (I was the 12th) and after that I messed up the order of presenting the water and wine vs the handwashing bowl. I went outside and talked with the others for a bit until I went back home. Lunch was just some dry elbow macaroni I ate until I decided to head over to the Catholic Center and work on my blog entry for the day. After a while there I roamed around a bit and found out that Reuben was there working on his lab, he got done with that and we talked about chemistry and how his chemistry teacher who was from Australia hated the American education system and didn’t report Reuben one time when he blew a hole in the drywall with a sodium cannon he made. He also said that there was this issue with writing the report for the lab. Reuben left after a while and I completed my homework that was due tonight before heading back home to play some more normal Terraria. I chose my final class to be the Art History class and then had this conversation with the Art History major at 4:50pm:
>I officially went with yours!
<have fun!!!
>If I need help you’re getting a call!
>Probably won’t need it though

<i’ll charge for tutoring
>0.00 starting rate!
<i have student loans i will be charging $10,000 per minute
>0.01 take it or leave it!
>Per minute

<boo!
>1.00 per hour.
<5.00
>Per day, take it or go back to your home state!
<can’t go back where i never left
I heated up some stew for dinner and I went to this casino event because 3 of my DnD players canceled on me. I went there and saw Nintendo fan with her younger sister. It was uncanny how similarly they dressed, I was doing so good gambling initially with Blackjack before I just ended up constantly losing and got all the way down to my last token. Nintendo fan’s sister ended up getting a lot of blackjacks (face card + ace) and I found out that she was in high school while her older sister was a Freshman in college. I heard them play a lot of classical music during the event and then finally we had the raffle ticket draw. I didn’t win anything but Nintendo fan won a bunch of candy and a blanket so I thought it would be funny to grab some of the free candy they were giving out and put it in their bucket. They laughed and then I went home to call my mom, she talked about my therapy session and my complaints about my therapist trying to put me on antidepressants, her response was to ask if she could even prescribe them and also talk about her experience in this equivalent to Alcoholics Anonymous but for people who had alcoholic parents. I then ranted to her about how my friends never invite me out anywhere and mentioned this one time that Asherah randomly invited me to go shopping at Walmart with her.
Basically the story is that on February 1st, 2025 at 2:42pm, I got a Snapchat message from Asherah saying:
<🙄
<What are you doing tn

I replied:
>I have class from 5:30pm to 6:45, why do you ask Asherah?
<I need to pick up some three from the store
<*thread

>Wait what store?
<Probably walmart
<Unless you have a better store
<Or maybe Michaels
<I’m not sure what’s close

>Walmart is closer.
<Ok
>What time are we going then?
<After your class ig
>Ok, meet up at [outside home]
<Yes
>Ok! 🫡
At 6:03pm I got another message from her saying:
<So I’m in downtown and I don’t think I’ll make it back on time
>Why are you downtown?
<Escape room
>💀💀💀💀💀
<🕷️🕷️🕷️🕷️🕷️
>I mean I have to drop my stuff off at my dorm. What time do you think you will be back?
<At least by 8 I think
<I’ll let you know when we leave

>Man.
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May 2nd, 2025 [Continued]:
At 7:21pm she messages me:
<Heading back now so it’ll be like 15 min
>Ok
<I am back
<Let me go upstairs super fast and then I’ll meet you

[Author's note: She lived on the 20th floor]
>Ok!
>Dawg hurry up!

<I’m coming
We got on the bus and then we got to the Walmart, the problem with the Walmart was that the locals didn’t really keep things clean so there was litter everywhere and shopping carts strewn about, I grabbed one of the shopping carts and pushed it back to where it was supposed to go and Asherah found it kind of funny and weird at the same time that I would do such a thing. We walked in and headed to the thread aisle and she asked me what additional colors of thread she should get and I said red for one of them. We walk up to the cash register and I see that they have these half-dozen boxes of Krispy Kreme donuts, I buy them and then we walk out to the bus stop while we each eat a donut. The next morning I eat one more and then give the rest of the box to her.
My mom also started talking about my ex-girlfriend Angela and I told her multiple times I didn’t want to talk about it before I just hung up on her. I put my phone on Do Not Disturb mode and then chilled for a bit until I got this text from her:
<Did you hang up on me?
I felt guilty and then called her back to talk about stuff and she said that if I didn’t want to talk about anything, I could just say I don’t feel comfortable. I took her advice and then we talked about my roommate and James who I will be moving in with and also about Zephyr only pretending to tolerate me and her excuse that “she had a class” as to why both her and Asherah don’t attend the dinner event anymore. I ended up hearing Programmer Uncle in the background before we finally ended the call. I then took a shower and finally went to sleep with some brown noise playing in the background.

Song of the Day: Ride of the Valkyries - Richard Wagner (1870)
 
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May 3rd, 2025: Back to work today, I first woke up at 5:30am and browsed Instagram for a bit when I noticed that the Art History major had posted on her story this message:
<is anybody else seeing the cradle catholic vs convert discourse on tiktok … it’s kinda discouraging
<I understand the protestant attitude issue they have with converts but also a lot of them are being purposely hurtful bc they’re mad
<i think they’re really mad at the trad catholics tho and i’m pretty left wing myself so i probably don’t apply but it’s still… strange

I replied to it with:
>It’s just them being mad that they’re happy with the faith and they’re like “You need to have a ton of guilt and feel sad all the time!”
I truly woke up at 7:15am and had some cereal and coffee for breakfast while I played some more Terraria before I had to take the bus to work. I noticed it was Xebec's 21st birthday so I sent him a happy birthday wish. I got to work and the first thing I saw was this posted thing of the original owner’s obituary, it said that he died on April 17th, I had been told that he was in Arizona and the fact that they were all lying to me just pissed me off, they really thought I was just some retarded kid who still couldn’t understand the concept of death at the age of 21, I was furious, but I noticed that the obituary didn’t mention his full middle name, just his initial, so I asked Will and then Jesse if they knew his middle initial and they both said they didn’t, a bit later the original owner’s grandson (through the original manager) came to the checkout with fAsherah so I consoled him on his loss. Then I started working on a pull for the main part of the grocery store and after that I got to the beverage aisle and noticed that the new employee’s name tag was on the ground so I picked it up and gave it to Jesse. I then worked on my other tasks and took my first break when I saw fAsherah and got into a pointing contest, but she accidentally hit her head on a pillar so I made sure she was ok, thankfully she was. I then continued stocking the shelves until it was time for my lunch break when I got a prosciutto sandwich with Folsade at the cash register. I then went up and ate and I saw this story posted by this Lil Peep fan which was just OnlyFans bait and this had been the 20th one I have seen posted by her (the fan) in a week so I told her:
>Stop fucking posting this disgusting degeneracy.
And she actually deleted all of her stories because of it. I saw fAsherah and noticed how dry her knuckles were and made a joke about it. I chilled until it came time for me to head back to work. My last task on my list was to sweep and mop upstairs while fAsherah was counting her money. I jokingly pointed the mop at her like a rifle and she laughed, I then remembered this video of these young kids from Kazakhstan performing this mock execution in a Communist regime and I described it to her while laughing so hard. I then completed my task and texted Jesse for another one, which I was given the task of packaging meatballs into bags, I went out and saw Biker and his girlfriend outside. I then went to package all of the 12 boxes while I was watching this video response of Redeemed Zoomer replying to Trent Horn’s video on his video saying why he isn’t Catholic. I found out that the girl I dated on Tuesday had her middle name as Lynn. I got that done and then started working on my closing tasks. In the middle of that, I saw that the girl from the center had posted about it on her Instagram story with some detail and I made a joke asking for information that was in the story and she took it seriously. I then left work. I took a bag of salad on the way home to have for dinner and I ate that, I then walked over to this performance arts center because this one girl and Luigi were both performing. I walked over and Monique was there scanning tickets so I went down and got one for free. I went in and took some pictures before having to move to the front row to take better pictures, I ended up going outside at halftime and joked around with Monique a bit and went over to the water fountain, I noticed that the water fountain felt super hot so I said:
“What is up with this water fountain?”
The guy with Monique replied:
“Trust us, it’s cold!”
So I drank it and it was super cold. I then went into the bathroom and browsed Instagram for a bit when I saw a story complaining that fat people were hated for simply being fat and that they didn’t like it so I just replied:
>I love you!
To which I was met with the response:
<hey thanks man
I went back inside and saw this rendition of the song I Will and my personal favorite, the traditional Swedish and Norwegian folk song Trilo. I saw Luigi and this one girl I knew from freshman year of college that was taller than me. I even saw them staring at each other at one point. I took a few pictures of that and then talked to Luigi and the girl after the performance was done, they were kinda touchy with each other and I noticed that, I tried to find the other girl who invited us all to the event but couldn’t. I went home and noticed a text from the girl I went on the date with on Thursday. I then went home, took a shower, and then went to sleep.

Song of the Day: I Will - The Beatles (1968)
 
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May 4th, 2025: Cereal for breakfast and then heading out to work, I sent the photo of Luigi and the tall girl looking at each other to the tall girl. On Instagram the Art History major posted another story which said:
<y’all someone on tiktok just equated converts to people that are cultural appropriators… girl i’m sorry i didn’t grow up catholic i can’t help that 😭
I replied:
>I did and I give you the pass.
Then the conversation went as followed:
<😭
<this whole discourse is so funny especially bc it’s a bunch of people that don’t even practice anymore as far as i can tell so why do they even care atp

>It’s just the Ishtar Gate but with religion.
>Like the Iraq government didn’t care to maintain it and now they’re mad that Germany has made it beautiful.

I hopped on the bus (the other one because there was an inconvenient gap in service of my preferred one) and waited around before clocking in. It was Rama’s 21st birthday today so I sent him a happy birthday wish, he replied to me:
<Aye thank you Gemerson! I appreciate it
I had some cleaning tasks and sadly also the task of stocking the frozen aisle. For my first break I bought some peanut butter squares to eat and I ate the entire thing yet it didn’t fill me up. I continued working and said hi to Sabrina a few times. I had to stock the shelves for some of my tasks and even saw Biker. My lunch break was pasta with sausages and I got it while Folsade was refilling them.
“Are you taking my pasta Gemerson?”
She joked.
“Yes, because it’s lunch!”
I replied, we had a good laugh. I went upstairs and then microwaved it for lunch, I said hi to one of the bakery people and then went back to work. I got a notification from the tall girl saying that she save the image and replied:
<aw that’s a cute photo
We then had a back and forth of me asking her if she likes Luigi and she said no because of religious and political differences, she talks about how she works at a Methodist church as a singer while being Agnostic and also how she doesn’t prioritize relationships while just waiting for one to fall into her lap. I found that stupid to be honest. I got done with all my tasks before my second break and then went on break to chill with fAsherah, I asked her for some workplace drama and she told me that Biker apparently got the puff on his hat from a mauled rabbit he found on the side of the road and another thing was that he had made up something about him cheating on the girl who drove me home from work once which resulted in his girlfriend angrily calling her, another thing fAsherah told me was the BPD girl trying to get Mr. Blundstone to buy her alcohol for her “friend’s birthday” (she had used this excuse a lot). fAsherah also mentioned that he sometimes came into work with scratch marks on his face but I have never seen this happen before. She also told me that the bakery was a tough nut to crack because of how insular they are, but Lebanon was a nice guy. The Italian lady was here and she asked me to empty her personal garbage, which I did, and she told me about these expired cheese spreads in the cooler that I could take. I then got assigned another task by Jesse to wash a bunch of windows so I did that and then started on my closing tasks before saying bye to Tony and the new hire before buying a Cherry Limeade Sprite after clocking out and then catching the bus to the 5:30pm mass. I then went inside after a bit when I saw Kaitlin and her boyfriend attending mass so I asked to sit with them, but next I saw the girl who graduated in 2019, whom I finally decided I will be calling Naomi. I sat next to her instead because she was sitting alone. Naomi had an amazing voice and we went through the mass as usual and saw the guy from my Machine Learning class and waved to him during the sign of peace. I noticed that Naomi was wearing a ring with a ruby heart in it on her left hand’s ring finger so after mass was done, I went into prayer and then decided to subtly inquire about her love life:
“Congrats on the engagement!”
I exclaimed.
“Oh no I’m not engaged at all.”
Naomi replied.
“Oh, wait why isn’t your husband here, who doesn’t go to church with their spouse?”
I dug further.
“Well I’m not married, I just have the ring because I’m not dating.”
She said, I realized that I was absolutely trapped, if I had stopped attending church with her or even any mass, she would just think of me as another guy trying to get into her pants, or even worse in her eyes, her hand in marriage, so I would have to remain her friend and never even try to do anything more, I lack the charisma and the immorality necessary to get her to change her mind so I’m not going to try. I then walked over to the bus stop and got home. I went over to this Arabic place and got 2 spicy chicken shawarma wraps and a Vimto soda for $17.00 (including the tip)
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I then walked home and worked on my homework assignment and my quiz due tomorrow, I then decided to ask the girl I went on a date with last Tuesday this question:
>Would you like to go on a second date?
She replied:
<Honestly?
<I think we are probably better off as friends

I took a screenshot and blocked her, I’m not giving her attention. I took a shower and went to sleep.

Song of the Day: Coyote - Harold Budd (1988)
 
May 5th, 2025: Sad sad Monday. I woke up and finished off the milk in my cereal before I took the bus all the way down to the art store and then walked in after 20 minutes to go and get a gigantic roll of paper. It cost me $20.00 and I then walked back to the bus stop and hopped on the bus quickly after I arrived at the stop and took the bus ride home. There weren't many people on the bus but I then got home and started playing some more modded Terraria for fun. I realized that I should get my pseudoleather jacket repaired so I made a post on the college Snapchat story asking if someone could repair it for me. I eventually got this friend request from this girl in my grade that had previously added me so our conversation went as follows:
<hey! saw your story, i sew
>Wait why did you re-add me?
<bc I saw your story 😂
>Ok
>Why did you unadd me in the first place?

<I go through every once in a while and purge my snap and just unadd a shit ton of people that I’m not really close with
>Ok
>How much for the re-sew?

<depends if I can do it by hand or need to use a machine
>I think you can do either.
>It’s not leather but I’m not sure about the exact material

<okay
<how thin is the material
>Sort of thin, I don’t have it on hand but I will be heading home at 3:45pm to check.
<ok. because if it’s the really thin faux leather it’s difficult to sew back together rather than just patching it

I then went to my first class and sat through it. I thought there was going to be a test today but I was wrong and we just learned about stuff that wasn’t even supposed to be on the final. I then had some time because we were let out early to head back home and take a video of the jacket for her to look at. My next stop was my Machine Learning class. Padma was eating those peanut butter Ritz things, I asked her if I could have one when there were two left and she accidentally dropped one on the floor and then gave me the last one. I was just learning about the Papacy and found out that Ireland is the only country in the world to have a camerlengo (Kevin Farrell) active during sede vacante (no Pope) but not a Pope. Then I had dinner (microwaved stew that Enosh made) and gathered all of my art stuff. I then opened my email on my walk to the rosary event and found this email:
<Hi Gemerson
<It is a public event, so you do not need my permission to attend. If you are genuinely interested in the research being presented, then you should come. If you are looking for an excuse to interact with someone in particular, then maybe think about sitting this one out. I believe you will make the best decision for yourself.

I just felt like shit, I felt so bad. When I got to the rosary event at 4:30pm there were 3 other people there, Angela’s roommate, the hand girl, and another guy. I felt like shit and ended up leaving early without warning, I did see Reuben on the way out. I got into art class and sat in the corner working on my art work. I had to get the teacher to cut my paper for me. I went out at one point to destress and got some Fruit Gushers from a vending machine and quickly left due to this group of friends hanging out, I ate them all and then went back inside while listening to Ginger girl and her friend talk and it got on my nerves so I told them to be quiet. I got assigned to the group for the in-person critique with Ginger girl, Pinky, and the oldest guy in the building and just looked at their works without saying a thing. I walked home and saw Punk outside but she didn’t see me. I grabbed my jacket and brought it to the seamstress’s dorm and gave it to her. I went home and drank two capfuls of Limoncello before writing this email to Asherah’s boss at 10:02pm
>Hi [Asherah’s boss]
>While I really appreciate your praise for my decision-making skills, because even if it may be over-optimistic, it is welcome. After carefully reading on and in-between the lines, it has been made crystal-clear that I am not welcomed within a large radius of any events anymore regardless of my socialization goals as per the will of this someone in particular, I will be honoring this agreement. Thank you for the clarification though!

I then went to sleep.

Song of the Day: It's Over - Roy Orbison (1964)
 
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May 6th, 2025: Another Tuesday today. I didn’t have any milk so I made myself some coffee today and gamed for a bit before I went out and decided to grab some scrambled eggs, sausage, and pancakes for breakfast. I also bought some milk to drink and put in my coffee, I then walked around and went to the library to this corner that I found and worked on my German homework while posting on KiwiFarms. I finished up and went to my German class. In it I didn’t talk with Quentin and we did some group stuff and I realized that this one guy in my class was Khadija’s brother. I then went to my second class of the day and sat with Chappell, the South Korean, and Nintendo fan as we watched the other 4 presentations before we had to leave for the day. I ended up finding the tall girl’s Hinge and Bumble profiles. Like I’m not even interested in dating you, I was interested in you dating Luigi. I got home and then gamed a bit more before heading over to the Catholic center early. I chatted with Luigi a bit and went upstairs where Henry was and gifted him this printout, I cut some pink slips for people to write notes to seniors with before I went into the actual mass. I talked with some of the guys and the Honduran said that he had a dream that Pizzaballa would become the next pope and if he was right, then he would be a prophet, also Markus, Henry, Mahdi, and the Honduran were all familiar with Redeemed Zoomer. In the mass Mercurius and this other guy were serving as acolytes and I sat next to the Honduran and Markus, who were dressed up pretty well. Mahdi and the engaged girl sat behind us. After mass had ended we went up to get food to eat and we decided to all eat outside, including Elizabeth, Markus, Luigi, the Honduran, Mahdi, Henry and his girlfriend. We ate some of the cookies they had but Henry’s girlfriend couldn’t eat nuts so I just made a joke about her allergy and she laughed at it. At one point the topic shifted to exploding ovaries and I said that you could just steal other people’s kids and Markus called me a doctor of the church for that. We ended up seeing Mercurius walk past with the girl he brought to mass one day and it turns out they are official. Pen Guy came and he talked about how Native Americans are honorary White people and him rewatching the two Weatherman movies, I wrote 5 pink slips for the seniors, Kaitlyn and her boyfriend, Rose, Henry, and Punk, I included my phone number with the last two and then gave mine to Henry and then walked home to finish up my homework. I then took a shower and went to bed.

Song of the Day: Ohne Dich (Stormy Weather) - Comedian Harmonists (1998)
 
May 6th, 2025: Another Tuesday today. I didn’t have any milk so I made myself some coffee today and gamed for a bit before I went out and decided to grab some scrambled eggs, sausage, and pancakes for breakfast. I also bought some milk to drink and put in my coffee, I then walked around and went to the library to this corner that I found and worked on my German homework while posting on KiwiFarms. I finished up and went to my German class. In it I didn’t talk with Quentin and we did some group stuff and I realized that this one guy in my class was Khadija’s brother. I then went to my second class of the day and sat with Chappell, the South Korean, and Nintendo fan as we watched the other 4 presentations before we had to leave for the day. I ended up finding the tall girl’s Hinge and Bumble profiles. Like I’m not even interested in dating you, I was interested in you dating Luigi. I got home and then gamed a bit more before heading over to the Catholic center early. I chatted with Luigi a bit and went upstairs where Henry was and gifted him this printout, I cut some pink slips for people to write notes to seniors with before I went into the actual mass. I talked with some of the guys and the Honduran said that he had a dream that Pizzaballa would become the next pope and if he was right, then he would be a prophet, also Markus, Henry, Mahdi, and the Honduran were all familiar with Redeemed Zoomer. In the mass Mercurius and this other guy were serving as acolytes and I sat next to the Honduran and Markus, who were dressed up pretty well. Mahdi and the engaged girl sat behind us. After mass had ended we went up to get food to eat and we decided to all eat outside, including Elizabeth, Markus, Luigi, the Honduran, Mahdi, Henry and his girlfriend. We ate some of the cookies they had but Henry’s girlfriend couldn’t eat nuts so I just made a joke about her allergy and she laughed at it. At one point the topic shifted to exploding ovaries and I said that you could just steal other people’s kids and Markus called me a doctor of the church for that. We ended up seeing Mercurius walk past with the girl he brought to mass one day and it turns out they are official. Pen Guy came and he talked about how Native Americans are honorary White people and him rewatching the two Weatherman movies, I wrote 5 pink slips for the seniors, Kaitlyn and her boyfriend, Rose, Henry, and Punk, I included my phone number with the last two and then gave mine to Henry and then walked home to finish up my homework. I then took a shower and went to bed.

Song of the Day: Ohne Dich (Stormy Weather) - Comedian Harmonists (1998)
Why did you post yesterdays blog today
 
May 7th, 2025: Quite a busy Wednesday today, my first thing I did when I woke up was to finish off my cereal for breakfast and play some more modded Terraria. Looking through my pile of mail that is mostly junk or belonging to the previous tenants I found something postmarked April 29th, 2025 from my parents and it was a new card, but I already had one. So I texted my mom:
>I already got a new card…
She texted back:
<Ok. Look at the expiration date.
<BTW, I spoke to Addison and she thinks SSRI's may help you feel better. Ask this Dr. Who is going to subscribe. Make sure they know about the ADD medication you are currently on.
I replied:
>Ok!
>I replaced the card already.
<I meant who is going to prescribe the new medication.
>Ohh
I went to the library and bought some coffee along the way to drink while in my favorite hideout. I ended up finishing my homework that was due at 1:00pm at 11:00am and then I walked around a bit more. I was watching the livestream of the conclave to elect the new Pope after Pope Francis died and saw the seagulls. Cara sent me a snapchat about her listening to Rush albums on Vinyl and that I would enjoy it. I was watching it while in my C programming class. I had my computer positioned so that others could watch the livestream. I don’t think anybody saw it but I did see black smoke near the end of my class. In my class I went on twitter and posted this thing about a hate hour for my followers to participate in and the only notable one that was posted was by NLinBougainville (@NLinBougainville)
<I want to see you happy bro and every time you doompost about fumbling again something dies inside of me
Which kind of hurt me mentally. I then walked over to my second class which was just me and the guy who goes to Tuesday mass sometimes. I told him about the thing and then I chatted with Torvalds online for a bit until I just had to leave early because I wasn’t feeling good. I talked with @princessparkles on Instagram which ended up with her sending me gore because she got so mad at me so fast. I went home and then I decided to go over to the Catholic center to chill for a while.. When I got to the place I sat downstairs for a bit when some people came out of the Early Christianity class, including Mercurius, Mahdi, the Honduran, Markus, and the professor while talking about his 5 kids. I ended up sitting with the others minus Mercurius as we discussed the papal election and also talked about soyjaks. The two ones that I shown which got the best reactions were these:
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I found out that they were all staying in the city over the summer and I said that we should hang out more often during it and that I would be serving at the Wednesday mass. They would probably come over to my mass sometimes. I then went to my last art class for the day and worked on my stuff. I got over halfway done with mine when my dad called me in the middle of the class and I had to go outside. We talked about me serving at mass, Mother’s day coming up, and the papal conclave, in the middle of the call this ginger girl (not Ginger girl) knocks on the door to be let in and even makes a blowing a kiss motion towards me, I let her in but didn’t talk to her at all. I went back and did the presentation of our works and then grabbed my art from all my previous assignments. I asked if we could leave early (5 minutes) so I could go to this event at the Catholic center and the teacher said sure, I walked over with all my stuff and placed it in a room downstairs before entering the chapel. When I went in there were these two non-denominational groups at the church and the chapel was absolutely packed. They were singing typical non-denominational church songs and I didn’t sing along because I felt disgusted. Immediately after the non-denomination pastor gave a sermon about unity and one of the non-denominational girls gave a reading from Romans about unity, our priest then gave a sermon and we closed it out with a song that we sang together. I realized that it was what God would have wanted of me so I sang along, afterwards we ate pizza and I even gave this super chill guy a tour of the upstairs. I got two girl’s Instagrams and we did an icebreaker initiated by one of the guys from the other organization. Henry, Seraphim, Luigi, and this 4th guy who I will be calling Sideburns wanted me to sit on the couch and I didn’t do it. I found out that Seraphim didn’t have a kid and my presumed name for him was wrong. I might be conflating someone else with him. A bit later the priest and I talked with this Black girl about Catholicism and explaining it, she was super interested and wanted the priest to explain more and even attend the Wednesday masses at the fancy church. I ate some fruit by the foot and then went home at 9:00am and took a shower and then debated sending a text to Lizzo asking her about the random text she sent me last month, but I just went to sleep.

Song of the Day: Earth Song - Michael Jackson (1995)
 
May 8th, 2025: Amazing day today, I first woke up and went to the convenience store to get a 2 for 1 deal on Rice Krispies cereal and then had some of that along with some coffee to make the day go well. I then walked over to the Catholic center and chilled there as I watched the livestream of the papal conclave on my computer. I also had like 3 assignments to do in relation to my German class today and I completed them all before class even started. I knew that some black smoke had gone up for the morning session on the second day of the conclave before (Italy (more specifically The Vatican) is ahead of us time-wise) so I didn’t really have my hopes up that it would conclude soon. But, at roughly 10:45pm I noticed that there was white smoke coming out of the chimney and I got super excited, I immediately shouted the news:
“WHITE SMOKE!”
I went around the center shouting it, I told it to Reuben and even went downstairs and had to tell it to the guy I was in my Machine Learning class with when he was talking to the priest. I was so delighted to see that but there wasn’t any announcement as to who it would be. In the family groupchat I posted:
>WHITE SMOKE! A NEW POPE HAS BEEN ELECTED!
My dad replied:
<Who dat?
I walked to my German class while watching the livestream on my phone, thankfully I had my eyes opened so I wasn’t always just looking down at it. I got into my German class and I had my phone on the livestream, they hadn’t announced who the new Pope was yet because nobody had exited, the teacher showed us the music video for Ich Will by Rammstein and I only half watched it because I didn’t want to accidentally miss them showing off who the new Pope is. After the video was done the teacher talked about how his favorite Rammstein video was that of a 2019 live performance of Du Hast in France (I’m not sure) but over half of the members of the band are certified pyrotechnicians, I announced the white smoke thing in the class and they were all surprised, Khadija’s brother was there but Quentin was not. A bit later, one of our activities was to say what we wanted to be after college and we tried to stump the professor if we got a word that he didn’t know. I said Data Scientist and he sort of knew that word, he wrote down Data-wissenschaftler on the board and I looked it up and it was actually Datenwissenschaftler, so pretty close, but because I was livestreaming the conclave, the teacher said that I had to say my dream job was the Pope, or Der Papst (contrasted with the beer brand Pabst) I saw the new Pope finally come out and it looked like Pietro Parolin but I was mistaken and I found out a bit later it was actually Robert Francis Prevost who became Pope, I even texted the family groupchat about it)
>He’s from Chicago!
>Pope Leo XIV (born Robert Francis Prevost, September 14, 1955)

I was super excited and then I had to say that I wanted to be Pope later on in life. A few others agreed with the teacher’s decision including Khadija’s brother and this girl he would always partner up with. I said it and then we got let out of class early. I walked over to this restaurant and got a burger for lunch and saw the groupchat.
<Habemus papam - Markus
<HES AN AMERICAN! Leo XIV - another guy
<🎉🎉🎉 - Elizabeth
>YEAHHHHHHHHHH
<What was his birth name? - Elizabeth
<Robert Francis Prevost - another guy
>He’s from Chicago!
<Midwest is best - Seraphim
<It’s cool that he’s from America! - Hand girl
I then walked back home to post the Biblejak for the day congratulating the new Pope and I chilled for a bit at home until Reuben posted some exquisite bait in the groupchat:
<Can you all hear yourselves! Calling a MAN Holy father! This is blasphemous! What would Jesus have to say about this?
A bit later he replied:
<Just Kidding 🤣. This is awesome 👏.
The Honduran said:
<Hahahah, I was wondering when we became Baptist
To which Reuben replied:
<Lol Yeah, I wasn’t necessary pretending to be any religion. I just wanted to see if people would think I personally didn’t believe in a Pope.
My lab was about socket connections in C with most of it being set up for us, we had to send a phrase to the server and then have it sent back to the client all in uppercase, I completed that quickly and then got dressed up all fancy for my internship interview which I thought I had at 4:30pm, I called to confirm and she said that their offices closed at 4:30pm so I got dressed for nothing. Also 6ie replied to my thing that I had sent her a couple of weeks ago about her meeting her husband Rocky with this:
<No way, we didn’t meet till I was 26 and he was 29. There is noooooo way I would have been interested in him back then. He was a snowboarding bum with long hair who loved to party in college. In fact, we had mutual friends for years before we were officially introduced and those 3-4 years I don’t think I ever took a second look at him even though we were at multiple parties and concerts as a group of 20ish ppl. 🤣
I found that funny and then I walked over to the Catholic center to write out my blog entry. I got a text from my sister saying:
<Gemerson what is your confirmation name
I replied:
>Ambrose
<Why
<Wow! An American Pope? What order?
- Mom
<Augustinian
>I asked my friends and only one chose one.
I then was sitting in the main entrance when some people came in and talked about driving all the way to Whitewater. They asked me if I wanted to go and I agreed. I got in the car with Seraphim, the second girl I danced with, and Sideburns. As we were driving out, this car behind us got rear ended and had a good amount of damage so we had to call the others to see if it was their car that got rear ended but they were safe. We drove a good distance while Seraphim created a blend where we could add songs. I got criticized for putting a long Emerson Lake and Palmer song on the list. I found out that the girl driving us and Sideburns are cousins and that her 20th birthday is in 2 days while Sideburns’s birthday is the same day as mine but in 2005. I told them about the girl that lives in Whitewater who was obsessed with me and goes to a Church service but I think she’s non-denominational. Sideburns revealed to me that he has a crush on this girl that was also going with us in the other car that he has known since childhood but he said he was discerning the priesthood, I said that he should become a deacon instead so he would still be free to marry and serve God more efficiently. We finally got to Whitewater and they were serving hamburgers for dinner so I got two burger patties and slices of cheese on mine. I sat with this new crowd at first and then with some of my old peeps, which included the hand girl (dubbed Hannah now) and the first girl I danced with. I made a joking remark saying:
“I don’t have enough alcohol in my system to talk about Israeli politics.”
Which made Seraphim exclaim:
“I swear you and the Honduran are like Tweedledee and Teeedledumbfuck!”
We then started playing in this gigantic game of volleyball after celebrating the seniors. The ball went out into the road multiple times and I shouted:
“Kid in the road!”
Whenever that happened. We lost count of all the people there but the girl I danced with first and Hannah were laying in the sun for a bit and then joined our game. A bit later we went over to the fire pit and started a fire. Hannah and the two girls I danced with decided to sit all on this one wooden bench at once and it collapsed. We laughed and put it into the fire while we talked until we decided to all walk to this ice cream place. Along the way we passed by this frat house and a guy there yelled:
“Have fun at the bars!”
I replied:
“Actually we’re going to get ice cream!”
They all started laughing and brought it up when we got there because Seraphim and Sideburns got there first. I got two scoops of Zanzibar chocolate and loved it. The second girl I danced with made a joke about calling her grandma racist because she only likes white beans, so I replied:
“In solidarity with Black Lives Matter, I will be eating a can of black beans.”
Which made everyone crack up. We got driven back and watched the fire a bit more and ate some marshmallows until we finally decided to head home at 10:00pm with the same groups as before. The blend when we got home was pretty cool and I didn’t put any super long songs on it. We stopped at a Kwik Trip and refilled. I went into the bathroom and when we got out the second girl gave me the task of putting away the nozzle and she was laughing, I got in and found out that it was because I put Slow Jamz on the playlist and we talked about Kanye West, I got dropped off at home and then went to sleep.

Song of the Day: Sweet Home Chicago - The Blues Brothers (1980)
 
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May 9th, 2025: What a not so good day. I woke up early to start working on my report that was due for my Computer Ethics class. The engaged girl texted something asking about when the Catholic center was open in the groupchat and I told her about the study session hours. I ended up heading over near when it started and grabbed some food and went to their computer lab to work on my report. I made a good amount of progress on it which mostly consisted of copy pasting the notes I wrote for myself on the slides into the Microsoft Word file (Google Docs is better though) and then polished that all up. Around 11:30pm I asked the priest if he wanted me to serve for mass and he said absolutely. I got all dressed once he got done with Naomi’s confession and lit the candles, I messed up a lot during the mass, I accidentally put the water and wine back on the table one at a time, I did the first ring of the bells at the end of the priest putting his hands over the chalice instead of at the beginning. I got up sometimes when we had to kneel still, and I got the paten for communion too late. As for the attendance, it was 3+1 college aged men including Seraphim, 5 older women, and 7 college aged women, including Naomi, Hannah, the first girl I danced with (to do: come up with a good pseudonym for her) and the engaged girl. I got told that I should redo the training by the priest afterwards and I overheard that the engaged girl is going to get married at the end of the month. I told her and Naomi that I had an internship interview and they wished me luck. I then walked over to my apartment and started getting dressed for my interview before taking the bus downtown. I even saw Biker and his girlfriend along the way. I went in and I got let in to see the woman I was interviewing, sadly the internship isn’t paid because it’s a volunteer thing, but I managed to negotiate for me to be volunteering on Mondays and Tuesdays for 8 hours each day, (I wanted to do Wednesdays but it wasn’t paid) my duties would be helping ESL refugees who have never touched a computer before write a professional email and get jobs. I met some of the other people, including the guy who I am taking the workload off of, this guy from Ukraine helping Ukrainians (while he was looking at the new DOOM game on his desktop, and some other girls and guys, a few who had started as volunteers that got jobs. I even met the boss and when we left the woman interviewing me said:
“He likes to hear himself talk!”
I then filled out some paperwork for the volunteer thing and then got some food on a plate and then walked to the bus stop, taking the bus home. I went back to the Catholic center to finalize working on the presentation that was due tonight. I texted Joseph asking if dinner was on tonight but he said he couldn’t make it. I saw the priest upstairs with a few other old guys and they were discussing selling the building and turning it into a standard single family home. I went downstairs and talked to Reuben and Angela’s roommate before leaving, after that I watched some Family Guy and worked on my final art project and only managed to squeeze in two squares. I heated up the pizza I had for dinner and then took a shower, after the shower I tried to clean the bathtub with a mixture of baking soda, dish soap, and water but I added too much water and dish soap and it wouldn’t stick so I had to scrub it around the bathtub and kinda got it clean. Then I finalized my report. The group texted back and forth about it and it was due tonight but Chappell couldn’t just write down her contributions so I went to sleep with it being late.

Song of the Day: Rich Girl - Gwen Stefani, Eve (2004)
 
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May 9th, 2025: What a not so good day. I woke up early to start working on my report that was due for my Computer Ethics class. The engaged girl texted something asking about when the Catholic center was open in the groupchat and I told her about the study session hours. I ended up heading over near when it started and grabbed some food and went to their computer lab to work on my report. I made a good amount of progress on it which mostly consisted of copy pasting the notes I wrote for myself on the slides into the Microsoft Word file (Google Docs is better though) and then polished that all up. Around 11:30pm I asked the priest if he wanted me to serve for mass and he said absolutely. I got all dressed once he got done with Naomi’s confession and lit the candles, I messed up a lot during the mass, I accidentally put the water and wine back on the table one at a time, I did the first ring of the bells at the end of the priest putting his hands over the chalice instead of at the beginning. I got up sometimes when we had to kneel still, and I got the paten for communion too late. As for the attendance, it was 3+1 college aged men including Seraphim, 5 older women, and 7 college aged women, including Naomi, Hannah, the first girl I danced with (to do: come up with a good pseudonym for her) and the engaged girl. I got told that I should redo the training by the priest afterwards and I overheard that the engaged girl is going to get married at the end of the month. I told her and Naomi that I had an internship interview and they wished me luck. I then walked over to my apartment and started getting dressed for my interview before taking the bus downtown. I even saw Biker and his girlfriend along the way. I went in and I got let in to see the woman I was interviewing, sadly the internship isn’t paid because it’s a volunteer thing, but I managed to negotiate for me to be volunteering on Mondays and Tuesdays for 8 hours each day, (I wanted to do Wednesdays but it wasn’t paid) my duties would be helping ESL refugees who have never touched a computer before write a professional email and get jobs. I met some of the other people, including the guy who I am taking the workload off of, this guy from Ukraine helping Ukrainians (while he was looking at the new DOOM game on his desktop, and some other girls and guys, a few who had started as volunteers that got jobs. I even met the boss and when we left the woman interviewing me said:
“He likes to hear himself talk!”
I then filled out some paperwork for the volunteer thing and then got some food on a plate and then walked to the bus stop, taking the bus home. I went back to the Catholic center to finalize working on the presentation that was due tonight. I texted Joseph asking if dinner was on tonight but he said he couldn’t make it. I saw the priest upstairs with a few other old guys and they were discussing selling the building and turning it into a standard single family home. I went downstairs and talked to Benjamin and Angela’s roommate before leaving, after that I watched some Family Guy and worked on my final art project and only managed to squeeze in two squares. I heated up the pizza I had for dinner and then took a shower, after the shower I tried to clean the bathtub with a mixture of baking soda, dish soap, and water but I added too much water and dish soap and it wouldn’t stick so I had to scrub it around the bathtub and kinda got it clean. Then I finalized my report. The group texted back and forth about it and it was due tonight but Chappell couldn’t just write down her contributions so I went to sleep with it being late.

Song of the Day: Rich Girl - Gwen Stefani, Eve (2004)
>computer ethics class
 
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