Autism NT devlog

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had some fun with audacity
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mumbled award

 

[NT]

funny how people are being nicer to me now that ive posted my face
of course that doesnt make me "attractive" but i know what being an ugly motherfucker is like, i was one just 2-3 years ago
people are cruel

 

[basil]

funny how people are being nicer to me now that ive posted my face
of course that doesnt make me "attractive" but i know what being an ugly motherfucker is like, i was one just 2-3 years ago
people are cruel

you aren’t attractive, not to me.

 

[NT]

you aren’t attractive, not to me.

i dont even know why i should respond to this
i mean, a week or two ago i wouldve argued over dumb shit because i probably am ugly
but it's like, this is coming from someone who got buttfucked by someone sitting on their bed who weighs 400lbs
i cant take you seriously anymore im sorry

 

[Dremora]

They only see your face, i see a funny, talented man.. <3

Gay nigger

 

[Fagon]

i dont even know why i should respond to this
i mean, a week or two ago i wouldve argued over dumb shit because i probably am ugly
but it's like, this is coming from someone who got buttfucked by someone sitting on their bed who weighs 400lbs
i cant take you seriously anymore im sorry

he just wants attention

 

[JC Denton]

funny how people are being nicer to me now that ive posted my face
of course that doesnt make me "attractive" but i know what being an ugly motherfucker is like, i was one just 2-3 years ago
people are cruel

You censored ur face tho

 

[NT]

he just wants attention

truly a broken excuse of a "man", one who desperately tries to put down others to make up for the fact he is a wicked and corrupt hedonist and everyone is aware of it
lmao

 

[NT]

You censored ur face tho

right, but they've seen more than enough. they know my height, my weight, my voice, the shape of my head, and i dont feel like doxxing myself more than i already have.

 

[Xiuhcoyotl]

right, but they've seen more than enough. they know my height, my weight, my voice, the shape of my head, and i dont feel like doxxing myself more than i already have.

DOX UR FACE NOWWWWWW

 

[Dremora]

right, but they've seen more than enough. they know my height, my weight, my voice, the shape of my head, and i dont feel like doxxing myself more than i already have.

Why even doxx yourself to this extent to begin with?

 

[NT]

DOX UR FACE NOWWWWWW

not now

Why even doxx yourself to this extent to begin with?

my looks are the only thing i have, even if they're mediocre

 

[Xiuhcoyotl]

Why even doxx yourself to this extent to begin with?

self foxing is keyed

 

[Dremora]

my looks are the only thing i have, even if they're mediocre

So it's for attention. Pretty stupid behavior if you ask me.

 

[baqqrih]

but i know what being an ugly motherfucker is like, i was one just 2-3 years ago
people are cruel

I know the feel, too. I wasn’t at all blessed with a good face (at least, a good face besides a resting one. My face looks poor when I genuinely smile, just the way my mouth is proportioned to my cheeks, and how then my eyes look ghastly when my cheeks are pushed up with the smile) and I feel the effects of that repelling appearance at school, when people give me the attention they'd give a decent-looking person on the regular only whenever I help them with their work or give them an informative answer to a wonder they have. I believe it's left me without many friends besides those who know of and can value my actual qualities and skills I have, like my knowledge or my speech (which is also haltered and cursed by my voice's natural tone being deep, quiet, and especially hard to hear in louder settings unless I put strain upon it as I speak). Still, you have to see the good in everything you're granted. My friends at school are now exclusively people who do truly value me as I value them, and that lack of sociability has only furthered my trust and my bond in The Lord. Sorry for the ramble, but I wanted to say that I do relate to your feelings.

even if they're mediocre

Nah, man, I'd say you look pretty good.

 

[NT]

So it's for attention. Pretty stupid behavior if you ask me.

Correct, and I won't try to deny that.
I don't want to wallow in self-pity, but that's how I make friends online. People generally don't care for my personality and I'm a pretty bland person at my core.

 

[Xiuhcoyotl]

I know the feel, too. I wasn’t at all blessed with a good face (at least, a good face besides a resting one. My face looks poor when I genuinely smile, just the way my mouth is proportioned to my cheeks, and how then my eyes look ghastly when my cheeks are pushed up with the smile) and I feel the effects of that repelling appearance at school, when people give me the attention they'd give a decent-looking person on the regular only whenever I help them with their work or give them an informative answer to a wonder they have. I believe it's left me without many friends besides those who know of and can value my actual qualities and skills I have, like my knowledge or my speech (which is also haltered and cursed by my voice's natural tone being deep, quiet, and especially hard to hear in louder settings unless I put strain upon it as I speak). Still, you have to see the good in everything you're granted. My friends at school are now exclusively people who do truly value me as I value them, and that lack of sociability has only furthered my trust and my bond in The Lord. Sorry for the ramble, but I wanted to say that I do relate to your feelings.

i don't like smiling bc of that

 

[DonutHole]

I know the feel, too. I wasn’t at all blessed with a good face (at least, a good face besides a resting one. My face looks poor when I genuinely smile, just the way my mouth is proportioned to my cheeks, and how then my eyes look ghastly when my cheeks are pushed up with the smile) and I feel the effects of that repelling appearance at school, when people give me the attention they'd give a decent-looking person on the regular only whenever I help them with their work or give them an informative answer to a wonder they have. I believe it's left me without many friends besides those who know of and can value my actual qualities and skills I have, like my knowledge or my speech (which is also haltered and cursed by my voice's natural tone being deep, quiet, and especially hard to hear in louder settings unless I put strain upon it as I speak). Still, you have to see the good in everything you're granted. My friends at school are now exclusively people who do truly value me as I value them, and that lack of sociability has only furthered my trust and my bond in The Lord. Sorry for the ramble, but I wanted to say that I do relate to your feelings.

Nah, man, I'd say you look pretty good.

A smile always looks good. Even if you look "uglier" than having a scowl on all the time. A smile biologically makes us feel warmer. We feel the other person's happiness.

 

[NT]

I know the feel, too. I wasn’t at all blessed with a good face (at least, a good face besides a resting one. My face looks poor when I genuinely smile, just the way my mouth is proportioned to my cheeks, and how then my eyes look ghastly when my cheeks are pushed up with the smile) and I feel the effects of that repelling appearance at school, when people give me the attention they'd give a decent-looking person on the regular only whenever I help them with their work or give them an informative answer to a wonder they have. I believe it's left me without many friends besides those who know of and can value my actual qualities and skills I have, like my knowledge or my speech (which is also haltered and cursed by my voice's natural tone being deep, quiet, and especially hard to hear in louder settings unless I put strain upon it as I speak). Still, you have to see the good in everything you're granted. My friends at school are now exclusively people who do truly value me as I value them, and that lack of sociability has only furthered my trust and my bond in The Lord. Sorry for the ramble, but I wanted to say that I do relate to your feelings.

Nah, man, I'd say you look pretty good.

Thanks for sharing your experiences. I can relate to a lot of that; back when I first started high school I had short hair, ugly glasses, and braces. I'm not saying things transformed when I became a senior, but people who used to insult me and pick on me didn't mind my presence anymore. Sometimes they'd even say hi to me and ask how I was doing.
Maybe it was out of pity or they matured a bit, but it meant a lot to me.

 

[NT]

About earlier, I should've mentioned this but I feel like the only way I can make myself look somewhat decent is by looking faggy. I don't have the body nor the facial structure nor the mentality of a traditionally masculine male. A lot of people assume I'm a pooner or maybe that I'm 14 online. It's an odd phenomenon and I don't like it.