My Autistic Ramblings

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attentionwhores has been shut down and the owner Wickerkid (Bruce Heathcote) will be partyvanned shortly.
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Thank the lords, I knew about this site thanks to ED... basically, I knew about attentionwhores thanks to somebody making a thread about dropping the site off CloudFlare, and If i remember correctly, the klasky csupo guy sent me THIS in my conversations...
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(keep in mind that this was before i joined here btw, "here" as in the schlog)
and for those asking, no, i thankfully never went through with it, and likely never will especially when the guy stopped posting on EDF in december of the same year, luckily
 
Hello, and welcome to my blogposting thread. Here, I will post about whatever I feel like posting about. Don't like that? Too fucking bad.

I'll start with something that just happened.

Today, I saved a 14-year-old girl from getting groomed on Discord by O9A pedophiles (after another user on here alerted me to it).

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(I censored her name and profile picture in this screenshot for obvious reasons.)

The Chomo-Choking Champion strikes again. I was the #1 enemy of pedophiles in prison and I fully intend to be the #1 enemy of pedophiles on the outside as well.

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I'm still working on taking down ḅù5ṫ and skajyos. More details to come.
"order of nine angles" nigga wtf, is that an actual thing? why are discord niggas acting like old jews?
 
Recently, I discovered the Trollge/dark trollface memes, which are usually like this:

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These memes are, obviously, meant as ironic pitch-black humor, but I can still very much relate to them. They reflect the meaninglessness and emptiness of being alive on this miserable planet.

I should note that I was not raised religious. My fixation on existential questions is just typical autism on my part. It, of course, intensified following my arrest. When you're locked in a room by yourself for extended periods of time with absolutely nothing to entertain you, you, of course, tend to retreat into your thoughts. The non-stop existential dread that I always felt was simply made a million times worse by prison and especially by solitary confinement.
 
@MoonMetropolis thoughts on schizoid personality (disorder)? I know some people think it's just a different type of person or even think they're superior for being that way, but you strike me as one. Apparently treating it is hard as fuck though because virtually no professionals have heard of it. I know there are some good books about it that I can get the pdfs of if you want.
 
I actually used to think that I had schizoid personality disorder. I scored almost 100% in tests for it. However, people with schizoid personality disorder have an especial inability to feel anger, whereas anger is the only emotion that I feel on a regular basis (along with general sadness).
 
@MoonMetropolis thoughts on schizoid personality (disorder)? I know some people think it's just a different type of person or even think they're superior for being that way, but you strike me as one. Apparently treating it is hard as fuck though because virtually no professionals have heard of it. I know there are some good books about it that I can get the pdfs of if you want.
My best friend has it (or maybe its schizoaffective disorder or something) and moon really does'nt seem like a schizoid
 
I actually used to think that I had schizoid personality disorder. I scored almost 100% in tests for it. However, people with schizoid personality disorder have an especial inability to feel anger, whereas anger is the only emotion that I feel on a regular basis (along with general sadness).
I don't think feeling anger precludes you from it, it would be unusual but not unheard of. Some people with SzPD even have comorbid ASPD and are even more aggressive than average.
My best friend has it (or maybe its schizoaffective disorder or something) and moon really does'nt seem like a schizoid
Schizoid personality disorder =/= schizophrenia/schizoaffective. In fact, there's no psychosis with being schizoid. Schizoid PD usually presents itself as a quiet super-loner that is very restricted in emotional expression.
 
I don't think feeling anger precludes you from it, it would be unusual but not unheard of. Some people with SzPD even have comorbid ASPD and are even more aggressive than average.
Where did you read that? From what I've read, schizoid personality disorder cannot coexist with aggression. I've also read that nobody is ever diagnosed with both autism and schizoid personality disorder; it's always either one or the other.
 
Where did you read that?
Apologies, I don't remember.
From what I've read, schizoid personality disorder cannot coexist with aggression.
Either way, are you agressive or just angry?
I've also read that nobody is ever diagnosed with both autism and schizoid personality disorder; it's always either one or the other.
This is true, at least under the DSM-V. I'm not really sure how people who suffer from schizoid pathology but are on the spectrum are treated.
 
Recently, I discovered the Trollge/dark trollface memes, which are usually like this:

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These memes are, obviously, meant as ironic pitch-black humor, but I can still very much relate to them. They reflect the meaninglessness and emptiness of being alive on this miserable planet.

I should note that I was not raised religious. My fixation on existential questions is just typical autism on my part. It, of course, intensified following my arrest. When you're locked in a room by yourself for extended periods of time with absolutely nothing to entertain you, you, of course, tend to retreat into your thoughts. The non-stop existential dread that I always felt was simply made a million times worse by prison and especially by solitary confinement.
Did you try reading pessimistic philosophers like (Schopenhauer for example, or Mainlander, they explore these themes of existential crisis and meaningless existence in the world without god or inherent purpose quite well)?
 
Recently, I discovered the Trollge/dark trollface memes, which are usually like this:

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cn4wdd.jpeg


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These memes are, obviously, meant as ironic pitch-black humor, but I can still very much relate to them. They reflect the meaninglessness and emptiness of being alive on this miserable planet.

I should note that I was not raised religious. My fixation on existential questions is just typical autism on my part. It, of course, intensified following my arrest. When you're locked in a room by yourself for extended periods of time with absolutely nothing to entertain you, you, of course, tend to retreat into your thoughts. The non-stop existential dread that I always felt was simply made a million times worse by prison and especially by solitary confinement.
I know that you are an existential nihilist, but what are your thoughts on moral and political nihilism?
 
Apologies, I don't remember.

Either way, are you agressive or just angry?

This is true, at least under the DSM-V. I'm not really sure how people who suffer from schizoid pathology but are on the spectrum are treated.
I am not aggressive. I've never been a violent person. However, I have always had a low tolerance for frustration and a simmering anger and hatred.

Is it even possible for someone to be on the autism spectrum and have schizoid personality disorder?

Did you try reading pessimistic philosophers like (Schopenhauer for example, or Mainlander, they explore these themes of existential crisis and meaningless existence in the world without god or inherent purpose quite well)?
Not yet, but I am definitely interested. What writings of theirs should I start with?
 
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