Got more raspberry popsicles today. And also drew some shit but it's all boring. Being a drawfag sucks dick anyways. Wish I had skills on something more useful because you can barely get anywhere by being a drawfag unless you're lucky and get to direct some shit cartoon or whatever. Besides that everyone's been a nigger as usual. During the whole vacation I haven't even had the time to sleep which is like the only thing I have energy for because my parents are grounding me from sleeping more hours despite not having anything to do and completing all chores. Being awake at all feels tiring even if I'm not doing anything. Psychological support has done fucking nothing because they've been medicating me with SSRIs which make the specific symptoms I have (anhedonia and blunting) even worse, and I've had too many things distracting me from things I'd usually enjoy or that would at least mute the usual tiredness anyways. I usually have a lot of thoughts and it's fun but now my mind just feels foggy.
I don't like being negative so I know it'll get better eventually I suppose.
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