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I’m in my mid twenties. My life isn’t bad, but I have yet to accomplish a lot of things I have wanted to, including very normal things that had come naturally to others. I went to a very dark place and I started freaking out. I resolved to fix my life, but every attempt I made only reminded me of the time I wasted and experiences I missed. It seemed hopeless starting from the ground up at my age. I was so desperate to not look back to now as a 30 year old as I do now at my early twenties.
But, I realized some things. Mid twenties isn’t that old. My life has had its turmoil, but I’m still here. It isn’t enough to just recognize the issue or even know the solution, but you have to throw yourself out there. I was a very happy child, despite everything wrong with my upbringing, and I assumed that was just stupid. As a nihilistic teen and young adult, I was at least right, even if I was unhappy. Now I see I was still a fool. I want to be a cheerful person again. I don’t want to waste my time on escapism anymore, but on real life.
I’m blog posting this, because I suspect most of you are in this same funk. Esoteric teens, 20 sums, 30 sums, and even older. I know it feels like shit is fucked for you, but it really isn’t. As fellow soyteens, I want to see my fellows grow beyond this stat of being. Even the ‘teens I dislike. It’s not even like this situation is exclusive to us, but our very generations as a whole. Screw politics. Screw your past. Screw how cringe and retarded you are. Make some friends. Talk to that girl. Go to the gym. Go on that adventure. Apply for that one job. Never stop pushing new bounds, because even after you “figure things out”, you’ll be right back here if you ever settle down.
I became so obsessed over things out of my control and my failings, that I ended up wasting a lot of time regretting things instead of acknowledging my blessings. Im writing a book now. I’m going out to public settings now, even though they suck. I’m finding new places to explore. I’m doing better at the gym than ever (lifting wise not cardio, cardio is still a WIP) I’m applying for PhD programs again. I’m hanging out with my family and reconnecting with old friends. Even if that all fails, I’m going to choose to be happy and keep trying.
It doesn’t matter that things didn’t pan out for you in the past, because thinking about it now is pointless. You need to start living your life, not for yourself but for the ‘teens here who never will. Don’t wait for an epiphany or to break out of an apathetic state like I did. I’m planning on being happy moving forward, how about you?
>tldr
There is no tldr
But, I realized some things. Mid twenties isn’t that old. My life has had its turmoil, but I’m still here. It isn’t enough to just recognize the issue or even know the solution, but you have to throw yourself out there. I was a very happy child, despite everything wrong with my upbringing, and I assumed that was just stupid. As a nihilistic teen and young adult, I was at least right, even if I was unhappy. Now I see I was still a fool. I want to be a cheerful person again. I don’t want to waste my time on escapism anymore, but on real life.
I’m blog posting this, because I suspect most of you are in this same funk. Esoteric teens, 20 sums, 30 sums, and even older. I know it feels like shit is fucked for you, but it really isn’t. As fellow soyteens, I want to see my fellows grow beyond this stat of being. Even the ‘teens I dislike. It’s not even like this situation is exclusive to us, but our very generations as a whole. Screw politics. Screw your past. Screw how cringe and retarded you are. Make some friends. Talk to that girl. Go to the gym. Go on that adventure. Apply for that one job. Never stop pushing new bounds, because even after you “figure things out”, you’ll be right back here if you ever settle down.
I became so obsessed over things out of my control and my failings, that I ended up wasting a lot of time regretting things instead of acknowledging my blessings. Im writing a book now. I’m going out to public settings now, even though they suck. I’m finding new places to explore. I’m doing better at the gym than ever (lifting wise not cardio, cardio is still a WIP) I’m applying for PhD programs again. I’m hanging out with my family and reconnecting with old friends. Even if that all fails, I’m going to choose to be happy and keep trying.
It doesn’t matter that things didn’t pan out for you in the past, because thinking about it now is pointless. You need to start living your life, not for yourself but for the ‘teens here who never will. Don’t wait for an epiphany or to break out of an apathetic state like I did. I’m planning on being happy moving forward, how about you?
>tldr
There is no tldr
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