i thought i was ftm because i felt happier thinking of myself as a boy, i felt like i could relate to the men around me more and the girls around me were always so judgmental of me, i think being a tomboy for a while also made me think i was an actual boy, i was also on the weird side of tumblr for around a year which messed up my view on gender at the time completely, towards the end of thinking i was a boy i started to realize i didnt think i was a boy, i just didnt fit in with the girls my age and i was being groomed to think i was a man