It can be being a marine biologist and doing molecular studies on coral phylogeny
im not interested personally
or being an electronics engineer and CADing dive cameras for a (could be your) company.
also not interested
but relying primarily on parents or disability benefits with no intent to change that is just low
im young, and i assume you are too, so don't be too harsh on yourself, you can and should rely on your parents, they're your safety net.
I think the issue for me is that I can't find a job that I personally enjoy and the issue with this:
Writing books and coding video games also count as jobs.
is that, well, are they jobs if they're not really making you any money? I think you misunderstand what a job is. Maybe I misunderstand or have a negative view on it, but a job is not a fun thing to have and in my eyes, nobody actually wants a job. A job is very much like a prison sentence, I believe, it's typically grueling for most people who have them and if anything, you have to stick to schedules and crunch yourself on various tasks. Most people, mine included,'s dream jobs would avoid this and have something that sticks to them, like being a YouTuber or something along the lines of being a game dev with a fanbase that supports them through patreon, but to me, I think you have a negative view on stuff like disability money etc.
If the system is giving you free money, why get upset and mad over it? I hate the system, and you can't beat it, but you can break it. If they're giving me free money just for being autistic, why shouldn't I take it? Free money le bad because, because, it just is, okay? Maybe you're retarded or something, most people would take it in a heartbeat, free money just for being myself and doing fucking nothing, okay yes please gimme gimme gimme.
Still though, I'm quite young and don't have it figured out yet so it's unlikely that I'll ever figure out what kind of job I want, but stuff like "mechanical engineer CADing shit" or "marine biologist" like nigga idek what the fuck those are or how people even get into it. Most of the choices I have found in Uni just don't appeal to me, all I really care about is creative projects, and nothing else, so I don't see why I should try and force myself to get a job working for some role I will never be able to achieve or even want to do so considering just how much time it would take and how much money and time I would probably waste, wasting away in education and having no time to work on shit and do shit i actually want to do.
As for you, well, if you think you can maintain yourself and work for something, good for you, but I don't think you should be hating yourself like this, you should be breaking and exploting the system, not trying to beat it. You are autistic, you can't change that, no matter how hard you try to mask it, we should be coming together, not drifting apart. I need people like you, but the normie faggots are brainwashing us and trying to convert us, but it wont work. I know you'll crack. People like us need to stick together, because we're not like them, we're different, we're almost a different species, people like me and you could start our own companies and make our own empire, and soon it wont be the jews that run the world, but the autists. I've had it with the discrimination and the self hatred, you need to suck up and rise up, take the governments disability money and suck your parents dry so you can get out there and achieve your goals.
Because I don't fucking care about "how it looks" or "how low it is" and nobody does, nobody gives a shit, nobody knows your parents and if anything it's up for your parents to decide that and my mother loves me to bits so ofcourse she doesn't seem to mind at all. If anything, I'm probably going to be maintaining her farm, and not get paid for it, it wont be a job, but it'll be a responsibility I will have to take on. And I'd rather do that and get paid disability money than go work in fucking retail or get educated on what the fuck a mechanical engineer is and why I should be one when I don't want to be or a lawyer or some other bullshit job that has a load of requirements that I have to spend years in uni to even get my foot in the fucking door and even then I'll be surrounded by people that I absolutely fucking hate, because they're not like me and they're not like you.
TLDR, Stop caring so much.