If anyone wants to know what a it feels like to think your about to die in a car crash ill tell you; I practically only had 2 thoughts and after that my mind was wiped and I was in a panic like state; The only thought I had is "So this is how it feels to be in a car crash? This is how I'm gonna die?" "I'm so powerless and weak and insignificant and a fool for thinking that I know how to survive a car crash! I'm gonna be experiencing this? I'm gonna become another number?!" I felt powerless small and weak; After that all of my thoughts were out of my head my mind was totally clear I was in shock and panic and fear of dying I was and felt totally helpless in the situation. I tried to brace for impact my hand were up screaming "WHAT FUUUUCCCK FUUUUCK!" I just accepted fate. But the weird thing was I had no regrets, My life didn't flash before my eyes, I wasn't thinking or fearing of death in my brain, I wasn't thinking of my friends and family and loved ones, I didn't cry for help or want my mom, I didnt try or think of how to escape and survive, I wasn't sad of dying, So that's how it feels like to be in a car crash. Then after that I was thinking if I were just a couple feet back and we got into an accident there would have been a near 100% of dying and how the cops would have knocked on my parents door or brothers to break the news I was thankful I wore my seatbelt I was thinking of my funeral I was also thinking of how I'm gonna join my cousin who a couple months prior died I thought "wow I lived." Adrenaline was pumping I got out of the car my friend did too and I had to just run for second I was shaking so hard. I said outloud "LIFE IS PRECIOUS! ITS HAS SO MUCH VALUE TO ME NOW!" "THANK YOU JESUS FOR LETTING ME LIVE!" "I WILL TAKE EVERYTHING FUCKING SERIOUSLY NOW."
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