This sounds silly, but how am I supposed to do it?
As you all know I was set on being, frankly, a wretched faggot for quite a while. It took me far too long to realize that there's nothing positive about that lifestyle (maybe HIV+ i guess KEEEEEEK) and fags don't grow old together, nor do they have children, nor do they just generally have happy and fulfilling lives. Despite all of the contemporary sugarcoating that's been applied to the concept, anyone with two brain cells can see it for what it really is.
Anyway, here's the main point: I don't believe I'm ugly. I don't believe I'm a 10/10 gigachad either, but someone with my appearance shouldn't have too much of a difficult time in regard to finding a partner. That all sounded great to me until I realized it would be an equally retarded endeavor because all of my children would probably be defective, autistic apes. It's not even just my autism, the medications I'm forced to take would probably fuck up my kids too.
With that all out of the way, I've come to a conclusion that I have mixed feelings about: it would be best for me not to reproduce, and just in general stay celibate and single for the remaining time I've got here on this Earth. Deep down it's the least stressful life path I can take, and choosing it would also offer many opportunities for me to repent for my long, long list of sins.
And even if I am able to accept that, how would I go about informing my parents? Or should I just avoid that entirely? They're still very much in denial when it comes to "muh autism" and other defects.
I'll check back on this thread in 8 hours or so. Will probably regret writing it soon enough.
