Whenever someone compliments me online I get an urge to just shoot myself deep down, because I know they're being insincere and just want to gloat. That's how it goes, getting torn to shreds by people from all walks of life in all types of ways, covert or not. I remember one time I got into an argument on an old forum because I thought some of its members were too nice/forgiving/welcoming. Still believe I was in the right, they knew I was autistic and beneath the bubbly facade they'd undermine me soon enough. I hate people when they're nice to me, I hate then when they're mean to me, I hate them even when they don't know I'm there. Part of the punkass quasi "messiah" complex I have relies on the belief that everyone on this planet is out to ruin my life and stomp me down again and again.
