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Schizo My autoandrophilia/pooner urges [REVAMPED INTRO]

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baqqrih said:
That sounds like such a horrible thing to have to live with. I'm sorry you have to go through that.
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Thank you baqqrih. It's kind of terrible but I'm mostly used to it these days. My psychiatrist recommended me hypnotherapy but all the ones nearby were too expensive and not covered by insurance.
 
Steve said:
Hypnotism??? Are you actually seeing a psychiatrist because medical professionals don't typically see that as a solution to any mental problem.
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Yeah, well it was for my headaches because nothing else is working and it's probably psychosomatic o algo.
baqqrih said:
In my personal opinion, psychiatrists are usually terrible people.
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Yeah my mom described one as "she didn't even look at you in the face." My current psychiatrist seems kind and respectful albeit, generally listens to me and sometimes offers advice.
 
baqqrih said:
In my personal opinion, psychiatrists are usually terrible people.
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See I had to google what a psychiatrist even is because 90% of -ists are usually quacks and don't actually know anything about medicine and this is like a mental doctor, to me that just seems like a profession where you diagnose people to get them hooked on pharmaceuticals that break down their mental state more just to have them buy more drugs from you eventually leading to a horny eagle death spiral that ends in the patient overdosing or committing suicide.
 
Steve said:
See I had to google what a psychiatrist even is because 90% of -ists are usually quacks and don't actually know anything about medicine and this is like a mental doctor, to me that just seems like a profession where you diagnose people to get them hooked on pharmaceuticals that break down their mental state more just to have them buy more drugs from you eventually leading to a horny eagle death spiral that ends in the patient overdosing or committing suicide.
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There's a documentary a friend sent me from sometime ago that really, personally radicalized me against the entire field. There are no true, ingestible "cures" for any mental illnesses, nor are there observable, biological sources for how they appear in the brain (brain scans, for example, are not going to physically display depression, ADHD, bipolar disorder, and so on, and even if research papers by psychiatrists proclaim that they can, I don't believe you'll find one of those claims without words backing it that are a simple, unconfident "may" or "suggests that"), yet these freaky doctors are the ones locking hundreds of thousands of people up each year and pumping 'em with chemicals because the souls of these folk are naturally reacting to the stresses put upon them by the modern world, and these psychiatrists are rubbing their hands ready to profit with their cabinets full of snake oils behind them; you can even see this with what they did to Kanye West (8:37-9:32) and the drugs he was diagnosed with following his 2016 mental breakdown. This particular documentary is made by Scientologists, which will certainly sound strange, yet I don't believe that devalues what truths regarding the psychiatric industry the film can offer (if you can get past the intense pathos it employs, that is).
As for Liker's own case, I'm simply unsure, which is what makes me feel so bad for her. I am a spiritual person, and so I personally think that she is being attacked by demons, but, obviously, that isn't something everyone is going to believe, and I feel like she could be worse off if she did try to do away with her current health status-quo of medication because of her mental state, so it's a befuddling situation for me to think about, and I can only express my absolute sympathy for her.
 
Chvd33p said:
So who's the next target for Impersonation?
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I know I reacted with "Smug" because I was going to make a cheap "You" joke at first but ideally I'd avoid it because it just brings too much pain on every side. Both times it's happened I overdid it and disturbed the fuck out of the man. Plus I think I can treat it o algo without being a parasite [wholesome]
 
Soyteen Liker said:
I know I reacted with "Smug" because I was going to make a cheap "You" joke at first but ideally I'd avoid it because it just brings too much pain on every side. Both times it's happened I overdid it and disturbed the fuck out of the man. Plus I think I can treat it o algo without being a parasite [wholesome]
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I see
Well, you can at least make some jokes about it to scare unsuspecting nusoicacas unaware of what happened a few months ago
Now that I think about this, I remembered a cringy memory when I was around 15 or so, on which someone younger though it was a funny idea to take half of my personality and merge it with who was at the time one of my friends, another half, to generate its own unique personality, all this because we used to roleplay a little too hard on the online rpg mobile game I have posted about on my profile; it was something I tell ya.
Anyways, I'm somewhat fine with those jokes so long as the jokes aren't constantly being told, after all it's spontaneity and timing what makes a joke fun, not what 'p immigrant constantly did with his 'p jokes because "he hated pedos the most", one doesn't just constantly make those jokes merely for that, it was so obvious, but because boorungutans were active at that point any attempt at counter argumenting them would result in slopquotes
 
Soyteen Liker said:
Thank you baqqrih. It's kind of terrible but I'm mostly used to it these days. My psychiatrist recommended me hypnotherapy but all the ones nearby were too expensive and not covered by insurance.
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They recommend hypnotherapy to anyone who claims not to remember anything/have no specific trauma causing their symptoms
 
Soyteen Liker said:
Oh my fauci my thread got unlocked [wholesome]
Recently I've been considering playing stereotypical teen boy games when I get my laptop because the idea makes me excited. Yet, this excitement comes with a weird flavor of anxiety too. I'm not sure why, the way I described it was that "I feel like I'd taint any masculine interest I'd touch" but it feels like there's more to it than that.

I think my AAPself has AGP as dumb as that sounds. I wish I was joking. It feels like "he" wants to be a girl, but mostly for sexual reasons. Sometimes it takes over fully because when I was 13 I suddenly felt a full-on female mental shift and stopped being a pooner, at least on the surface. "He" sometimes communicates feelings to me because I can't really feel them. It's like there's a barrier between us and some data gets lost.

I hope I can appease "him" somehow. [wholesome]
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If i am gonna be honest, reading this thread I can somewhat relate, im sure some people can
In our case being a girl isnt just being all feminine, but we can also have masculine interests and have that side be part of our identity. Splitting your different identities does help assesing the situation, but sometimes gives you pooner dilemma or very much DID symptoms. my old ‘cord friends that im glad i dropped would try to convince me of that because i am interested in masculine things I MUST be a tranny.
Aldoebeit trannies and troonactivists claim to be fighting against inherently classifying interests and personality traits as; feminine or masculine, are woking against their own ideals.
Trust me, i have many times questioned if i was a pooner and i am so glad that I have throughly assessed the situation for myself, and looked at other people that decided to identify differently;
I have realised that things cannot be black and white, men cant be all masculine and women cant be all feminine, sometimes i see pooners who are trapped in their need to be validated „masculine individuals“, they cannot like anything remotely feminine, thus starting to hate femininity as a whole. This gives them constant identity crises.
If i were to split my identity into masculine and feminine i would also get 2 completely different identities, who would fall under stereotypes, and i bet they would still not be happy living how they are, having crises like the pooner crisis i mentioned above.
Before we are men or women, we most importantly are human, we are people all in all and if you look deeper into it femininity and masculinity in interests dont have to be stopping you. I assume because you were raised thinking that because you are a girl, liking boy things is completely taboo for you, you now have this itch for „masculine things“ and your male side (if you can call it that geg) still isnt the complete epitome of masculinity as far as i understand.
In my opinion, every person has traits or interests „that belong to either gender“. Labels and societal expectations make you think this is not normal, so you try and find a label or a fix for this. You are just a girl though, but that doesnt man you must be a certain way and there is no right or wrong way to being a girl if you were born as one. I could go on about this for hours honestly I could write an entire essay about how absurd gendered things are, how unhealthy it is to raise ‚nonbinary children‘, and how embracing your own gender and finding what way of life works for you is the best way to combat this.
 
chrisgriffinirl said:
If i am gonna be honest, reading this thread I can somewhat relate, im sure some people can
In our case being a girl isnt just being all feminine, but we can also have masculine interests and have that side be part of our identity. Splitting your different identities does help assesing the situation, but sometimes gives you pooner dilemma or very much DID symptoms. my old ‘cord friends that im glad i dropped would try to convince me of that because i am interested in masculine things I MUST be a tranny.
Aldoebeit trannies and troonactivists claim to be fighting against inherently classifying interests and personality traits as; feminine or masculine, are woking against their own ideals.
Trust me, i have many times questioned if i was a pooner and i am so glad that I have throughly assessed the situation for myself, and looked at other people that decided to identify differently;
I have realised that things cannot be black and white, men cant be all masculine and women cant be all feminine, sometimes i see pooners who are trapped in their need to be validated „masculine individuals“, they cannot like anything remotely feminine, thus starting to hate femininity as a whole. This gives them constant identity crises.
If i were to split my identity into masculine and feminine i would also get 2 completely different identities, who would fall under stereotypes, and i bet they would still not be happy living how they are, having crises like the pooner crisis i mentioned above.
Before we are men or women, we most importantly are human, we are people all in all and if you look deeper into it femininity and masculinity in interests dont have to be stopping you. I assume because you were raised thinking that because you are a girl, liking boy things is completely taboo for you, you now have this itch for „masculine things“ and your male side (if you can call it that geg) still isnt the complete epitome of masculinity as far as i understand.
In my opinion, every person has traits or interests „that belong to either gender“. Labels and societal expectations make you think this is not normal, so you try and find a label or a fix for this. You are just a girl though, but that doesnt man you must be a certain way and there is no right or wrong way to being a girl if you were born as one. I could go on about this for hours honestly I could write an entire essay about how absurd gendered things are, how unhealthy it is to raise ‚nonbinary children‘, and how embracing your own gender and finding what way of life works for you is the best way to combat this.
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When i did try to also do the weird either be feminine or masculine personality split, depending on how i feel and no inbetween, yes embarrassing but it helped me understand that acting entirely as one or another felt wrong? and very unnatural. I constantly felt like i was putting on an act, now I can be clothed in the most girly way possible, wear a ton of makeup because i find it fun and idk do some shitty soyboy activity, i will still feel like a girl and i will be happy doing what i do, especially if its something im good at. I dont know if what i described here or in my rant above applies to you; but i suggest reassessing the situation with your interests and wanting to do „male stuff“, for us most things about boys are unknown and we shouldnt dwell on it too much, eventually it wont be as much of a mystery when we get married or something
Again sorry if i misunderstood in any way, I just wanted to share my experience and thoughts on this stuff, i hope it was somewhat interesting or even helpful at the least
 
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