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Checked my Xbox balance and I still had $5 left. I feel bad for arguing with my dad last night, so I bought Pac-Man and Space Invaders (both coincidentally on sale for $2 and his favorite games as a child) and hopefully he'll play a bit when he wakes up in a few hours.

 

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Had to spend ~90 minutes watching a mandatory distracted driving video this evening. My mouth tastes like metal, my eyelids are heavy, and I'm tired of listening to parents crying about their normalfag kids getting mangled by 18 wheelers because they were texting Chad on their BlackBerry in 2007.

 

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My mother has agreed to buy me Farming Simulator 25 sometime this week as a reward for passing my driving test (which, given the circumstances, was a miracle). To say that I am elated would be a vast understatement. I believe I'm finally starting to claw my way up from rock bottom, and I thank my family & the Lord for helping me get back on track. Just completely unburdened by what has been.

 

[KingCargo]

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Talked to my dad tonight and he bought me Farming Simulator just a few minutes ago. Might be less active now since I'll be busy building the best MOTHERFUCKIN' HOG FARM in the USA

 

[ArBcswqnxNobgkdgULRxknEtLw]

Talked to my dad tonight and he bought me Farming Simulator just a few minutes ago. Might be less active now since I'll be busy building the best MOTHERFUCKIN' HOG FARM in the USA

Berkshire pigs. Just make sure you don't put the potatoes close to them.

 

[(In)CelibatePsycho]

No, but it felt like there was. It's happened before and in that case I had to push it out from the bottom of my eyelid. I checked the counter and floor for a lense and didn't find one... until I checked again and found it all squished together and dried up on the floor. Pretty nasty stuff.
Edit: and that was after I probably scratched the surface of my eyeball. Had to sit in bed for like an hour before I could use my computer again.

Contact lenses sound so annoying to deal with. Why don’t you just wear glasses?

 

[(In)CelibatePsycho]

I forgot to take my ZOG adhd medicine this morning and found out that it's probably harming me more than helping. As a stupid example, I spent an (uninterrupted) hour playing Minecraft vs. the standard 20-30 minutes while the medicine was in effect. Strange.

Why are you talking adhd medicine while playing games
Should you take it while studying or something

 

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Contact lenses sound so annoying to deal with. Why don’t you just wear glasses?

I look hideous with glasses, and I've had contacts for about 4 years so I'm used to occasional problems.

 

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I look hideous with glasses, and I've had contacts for about 4 years so I'm used to occasional problems.

Why does everybody here use glasses. Am I the only nigga with 20/20 eyesight

 

[(In)CelibatePsycho]

I have 4 more days until they can take me off the pills, today has been especially bad. the risperidone and abilify should've never been prescribed to me, they are meant as chemical lobotomies for people with schizophrenia and bipolar and i have neither. all because i had some anger problems.
i have been on them for maybe two years, my IQ has probably gone down by at least 5-10 points. i struggle to put together sentences, my mind and memories are shrouded in some form of fog, nothing feels right anymore. i abused ritalin to feel normal every once in a while.
it makes me sad, what was once a bright and happy young boy has been turned into a dead angry husk that has withered away for the most part.

It seems like everyone here is mentally ill and takes meds

 

[(In)CelibatePsycho]

Why does everybody here use glasses. Am I the only nigga with 20/20 eyesight

Lucky nigger kys

 

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Lucky nigger kys

Nigga wtf everybody's disabled

 

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Why are you talking adhd medicine while playing games
Should you take it while studying or something

Well, I take it before driving if that counts. It has positive effects that go beyond concentration (calms me down, improves my mood, makes me more articulate) so I take it even without being in school and still not having a job. I absolutely do not want to take it forever, but with my current situation it has proven to be a useful tool.

 

[condolana]

Why does everybody here use glasses. Am I the only nigga with 20/20 eyesight

Pure mutt genetics unlocking your vril.

 

[(In)CelibatePsycho]

I remember some tranny online telling me it would take years off of my lifespan in a genuinely serious tone, and I will admit that they were telling the truth after I looked up some mortality studies. Risperidone specifically was the worst, and with Abilify in the mix I don't know how long I would've lived if I stayed on this shit for a decade or something. 3 years is already bad enough.


The first week is always the worst, then you kinda "forget" for a while, and then a few months later you'll start to have little episodes where you remember and get put in a bad mood. At least that's how it works for me.

What did the mortality studies say

 

[(In)CelibatePsycho]

(yap yap yap)
There are some days where I remark on how modern medicine is a wonder and how I thank God on how He enlightened men and women alike to create new and safer ways to treat medical conditions, both deadly or not, chronic or acute, severe or mild. But then there are days where I remember that doctors are actively giving chemical lobotomizers (like you said) to children and teenagers your age. It's not fair. How do these kind of people even get a degree to begin with? They must know the effect of the medicine they're handing out before actually prescribing them, especially to younger youths. I already feel out-of-touch with the 2 SSRIs I'm on, imagine how you've must've felt for these past 2 years. Shit is so despicable yet there's nothing I (or you for that matter) could do.

They get their degrees from college (run by Jews)

 

[(In)CelibatePsycho]

I've always assumed it was mostly an American thing, and I'm sure you know what that (((means))). Not even joking for the most part, I hate to blame those people for everything but yeah.
People have called me an idiot for not just throwing the pills away, and I have to tell them that the single time I tried, I got caught and my father went absolutely fucking ballistic. Not really angry at him for that, though it makes me sad that these psychiatrist people are so good at fear-mongering and making struggling parents believe they NEED to put their kids on meds. The food in my country is already poison made for profit, and then the effects of that on people get treated with more poison.
Anyway, I even ended up abusing my Ritalin just so it would "cancel out" the antipsychotics for a brief period sometimes. The FDA here doesn't even mention those medications as suitable for treating autism (because it's a neurological disorder and not a chemical issue), they just randomly decided to say they can treat specific symptoms. People don't understand how those pills are high-caliber shit.

If I may ask, what SSRIs are you on? I despise that class of drug myself, but at least they don't completely rape your brain. Being on two must be rough though.

?? How are you getting caught? Just flush them down the toilet?
Does he have cameras in the bathroom or something?

 

[jimbo]

They get their degrees from college (run by Jews)

college is useful doe if ur going into stem

 

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@(In)CelibatePsycho if you are actually reading through all 21 pages of this niggerbabble may God have mercy on your soul