Digital Memopad

[Nintendo Switch]

>troon react from soyteen liker
That's how you know its bad.

oh, why is that? i am hardly what you call a troon anyway. i don't think it's possible to change your sex. i just think it's irrelevant. that is the opposite of what they stand for. :*)

 

[8doe]

if it helps make you feel better, you can call me they/them too. :')

would nig/ger work?

 

[Nintendo Switch]

would nig/ger work?

any pronouns are good with me. even silly ones. it matters not. :)

 

[𝗠𝗞𝗖]

Random but i just remembered how i used to listen to this fucking song on loop every single day when i'd go to school in 9th grade. my life was THAT bad kek

dont laugh

 

[Donald]

Random but i just remembered how i used to listen to this fucking song on loop every single day when i'd go to school in 9th grade. my life was THAT bad kek

dont laugh

 

[𝗠𝗞𝗖]

I played Komm Susser Tod for my mom tonight and at first she got worried and asked me if I wanted to kill myself but by the end she told me she liked it a lot and that it's very peaceful to her. She seemed almost impressed so I'm happy. Haven't told her the song's exact origins because that's too autistic but this went better than I thought it would.

 

[caus]

I played Komm Susser Tod for my mom tonight and at first she got worried and asked me if I wanted to kill myself but by the end she told me she liked it a lot and that it's very peaceful to her. She seemed almost impressed so I'm happy. Haven't told her the song's exact origins because that's too autistic but this went better than I thought it would.

Why did you play her the song? Did you think she'd enjoy it?

 

[𝗠𝗞𝗖]

Why did you play her the song? Did you think she'd enjoy it?

She asked about it yesterday, I think it was leaking through my earbuds a bit on accident. I had to kinda build her some courage to actually play it for her

 

[caus]

She asked about it yesterday, I think it was leaking through my earbuds a bit on accident. I had to kinda build her some courage to actually play it for her

Do you still have attachment to the song? I'm glad she enjoyed it, it's good to be alone to bond with your mother, even if it is awkward.

 

[𝗠𝗞𝗖]

Do you still have attachment to the song? I'm glad she enjoyed it, it's good to be alone to bond with your mother, even if it is awkward.

I do, it's a song that I used to rely on heavily about 4 years ago as well. I don't think it's the greatest piece of music ever made (far from it) but it's very comforting to me, probably sounds troony idk.

 

[caus]

I do, it's a song that I used to rely on heavily about 4 years ago as well. I don't think it's the greatest piece of music ever made (far from it) but it's very comforting to me, probably sounds troony idk.

It doesn't, It's nice to have interests and special songs, just about everyone has a song to get them through things. Never watched eva though, not my thing.

 

[caus]

I do, it's a song that I used to rely on heavily about 4 years ago as well. I don't think it's the greatest piece of music ever made (far from it) but it's very comforting to me, probably sounds troony idk.

If you'd like, you can attach or message me more songs you like.

 

[𝗠𝗞𝗖]

If you'd like, you can attach or message me more songs you like.

Have a few more. Just random crap mostly

 

[𝗠𝗞𝗖]

I feel my vril reaching critical levels, harmonics are all good but my racism inhibitors are getting overloaded vghhhhh

Spoiler: nigger

 

[𝗠𝗞𝗖]

I feel a little bit guilty about my situation at the moment because it seems like things are leveling off and they're eventually going to go back down. I made a few online friends, they seem to like me but after voice chatting with them a few times I feel like I'm on a completely different mental plane entirely. Some of them are in college, doing organic chemistry shit and other relatively high-level things. None of them like the shit I do, making friends has only exacerbated my sense of isolation more than anything else. Nobody is as stupid or pathetic as I am at 19 years old, I function on the level of a middle schooler with fetal alcohol syndrome.

 

[caus]

None of them like the shit I do, making friends has only exacerbated my sense of isolation more than anything else. Nobody is as stupid or pathetic as I am at 19 years old, I function on the level of a middle schooler with fetal alcohol syndrome.

I know that feeling, even though you're together, you feel apart, and you wish you'd just stayed alone,, but your friends don't seem to show any disdain for you, and you should enjoy your company as they do yours. Don't worry about your shortcomings and enjoy the time you spend with them. If you can, try to show some interest in what they do. Every new thing shown is a potential hobby or skill that can be learned. You're not stupid or dumb, you just show different interests than those around you.

 

[𝗠𝗞𝗖]

The last thing I'll say before I take my break is that I have found an odd amount of comfort in something I used to vehemently despise: being in the driver's seat. Whether it's in Forza (have spent 12 hours driving in that during the past two days) or IRL my skills have noticeably improved and I feel like it's a peaceful/fun way to escape for a bit. Combine it with deafening 80s music & Eurobeat and it puts me in a happy mood. My test will FINALLY happen on Monday and I'm not that nervous tbh. Good night.

 

[baqqrih]

The last thing I'll say before I take my break is that I have found an odd amount of comfort in something I used to vehemently despise: being in the driver's seat. Whether it's in Forza (have spent 12 hours driving in that during the past two days) or IRL my skills have noticeably improved and I feel like it's a peaceful/fun way to escape for a bit. Combine it with deafening 80s music & Eurobeat and it puts me in a happy mood. My test will FINALLY happen on Monday and I'm not that nervous tbh. Good night.

Good night, pal. Sleep well.

 

[𝗠𝗞𝗖]

Last night my dad told me that he still wants me to keep my smartphone even with everything that happened on Tuesday. I informed him that he ordered this phone as a Christmas gift about a month ago (by my request) and now he seems to be a little more open to the idea of me trading in my Pixel soon. I hate that I'll have to use that phone again to get the SIM out & factory reset it. $70 is going to be cool though, can't wait to buy Farming Simulator.

In case you don't know, that "drug dealer" phone I linked is about the most basic handset that still has 4G and works in the US. There is no browser, no app store, no social media, not even basic games like Snake. It can call/text and not much else. I also got him to order a 32GB microSD card since it has 128MB (yes, megabytes) of internal storage.

 

[Grinch]

imagine having such a lack of self control you break your own phone and computer