Even trannies aren't as much of a joke as someone who pretends to be a Japanese Nazi on a bald cartoon man with glasses site and still gets universally mocked and ridiculed, just like everyone in real life does to you as well. You will never be Japanese, nor will you ever be anything other than a complete laughingstock whose only purpose is to serve as a cautionary tale. Do the world a favor and kill yourself. Not a single person will shed a single tear for you, and you will be sparing yourself from a lifetime of unending failure and humiliation.