Autism My tragic incel life o algo (my journal now)

NiggerRigger said:
my mom drank liquor
and smoked weed
when she was pregnant with me
my forehead bulges out
and i have a cleft palate
i feel really confused
all the time
with everything
i think i have down's syndrome
i don't have the brains to have anything
resembling an intelligent conversation
i don't have the motivation
to do anything but watch television
because i wasn't fully toilet trained
until i was 17 years old
when i try to read a book
i just end up staring at a block of text
without understanding it at all
my perception is so limited and small
that i go into detail
about the tiniest bit of knowledge
that i have in my brain
then when i die
i'll go to heaven retarded
and they'll laugh at me there too
i don't know how to walk normal
because i can't stop thinking
about my mechanical legs
that suspend my disgusting abdomen
up off the ground
like a sack of filthy potatoes
on display
for everyone to laugh at
a sack of ugly potatoes
on stilts
and i know i have autism
and i'm legally blind too
and i have that weird fat puffy face
and people joke that i'm "mentally challenged"
mentally challenged? fuck off
i'm a retard!
a total retard that needs lethal injection
they should sterilize my entire family tree
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@baqqrih Is it over for me?
 
2chudded2care said:
ok im gonna use this for like le hecking based blogposting and stuff. this will probably be used against me or something but it doesn't matter.

for le first post im gonna give u the story of my entire hecking life

here's a bunch of information nobody cares about:
birth:
my oxygen was cut off in the womb which actually gave me this superpower called asperger's syndrome. parents didn't let anyone diagnose me because le citizenship and education issues
Age 1-3:
i was a happy little nigga who hung out with my mummy all the time and ate ice cream and loved lego and breastmilk. nothing more to it
age 4:
i entered kindergarten and struggled to make friends but the only friend i can remember is this girl who walked into the bathroom as i was pooing. also there was these kids who used to bully me and pull my hair out and stuff but my little sister threw a wooden brick at one and fractured his bone under the eyebrow or something
age 5:
school started and i made like 2 friends who are still my friends today. we got into trouble for killing catapillars or something.
age 6:
i stopped hanging out with those two kids and only started hanging out with this one fellow autist kid. he was german and explained to me why holobolo le good. also i became friends with this kid who has cerebal palsy or whatever it's called.
age 7:
me and my autistic friend skipped a sports class to break into another classroom and we fortified it and had booby traps with sizzors to kill the invaders. we also destroyed a bunch of work and then created a piece of paper with our demands of getting good grades because we were retards who did nothing. anyways when they walked into the class they were like "dude what the frick you just ruined my work!!!" and we got in a few detentions for ruining people's work.
age 8:
i sung a bendy and the ink machine song for my class. it was "build our machine" and my teacher said im retarded. then for the school talent show i sung a FNAF song with my aspie friend infront of 100 lil niggas.
age 9:
i was sitting in the library using the school computers next to my cereal palsy friend and he just starts watching porn and i didnt even notice that he was until the librarian comes and brings us to our teacher. basically for the next few weeks we had a lot of trouble. also i got in trouble for crashing kahoots and i became known as le based trad hacker.
age 10:
well this is my last year of primary school and im basically just trying to like be normal cause i always felt kind of lonely and i thought being cool would fix it. it didnt
age 11:
my first year of middle school i was still known as weird but made one popular "friend" who invited me to hang out with the popular kids all the time but they would humiliate me and make fun of me because im too sigma for them
age 12:
covid lockdown hit and i was kind of normal but then i became lonely and chronically online and got exposed to pedocord tranime servers. my new online friends tried turning me tranny but this one like 16 or 17 year old girl was like a mother to me and saved me being groomed. she was always really nice and motherly and if i still knew her now i would want to date her
age 13:
there comes a time in every aryan child's youth when he must leave the trannysphere and enter the most based right wing o9a esoteric hitlerite place of all: 4cuck. i became a massive 4cuck larp and did all this cringe shit. but i was aryan nigga dont play with me. anyways at the end of that school year i basically ended up regretting everyone hating me and me being lonely and so i decided to make a change and larp as a nigger. i tried making friends with the popular kids again which failed as i got beaten in two fights. but i didnt give up and eventually one of them started inviting me to hang out with them on the field. but they would beat me all the time because im cool and attractive and they were jealous. also the general bullying. they asked me if i wanted to try a vape when i was in school uniform and they took a photo and got me suspended but the one who took the photo got expelled which was basically the end of 6 months of being beaten every day because they didnt even want me to go near them. i became a lonely sigma looser again and would just sit in the bathrooms at lunch like maya from 'zellig because im sigma nigga. but then for our end of year project i asked 2 kids if they wanted to be in my group. and i thought theyd say no cos everyone hated me but they said yes and now im also friends with them to this day even doe they dont like my based aryan niggaism. but that doesnt matter. anyways the first lunch of us doing the project, when class ended, i went to walk 2 the bathroom cos i thought they wouldnt want me to hang out with them. but they asked where i was going and told me to stay. so i did and they got me into basketball. i started larping as a hooper because i wanted to appear cooler and normaller.
age 14:
basically i was just like larping as a hooper or something and went to the sport center every day at 5am to train, but since im retarded and uncoordinated i was shit. after a full year i gave up, but i became a christian which was based. i started going to a based redpill tradcath sigma orthodox church every service and i became very obsessed with theology. i got tired of basketball and quit it to focus on God. but i started to make it my whole personality which was my downfall.
age 15 (or 16, i've honestly lost track):
i met a cool girl online who was also orthodox and i dated her for 9 months, but 3 months into our relationship i started getting chronically online again and became a sharty obsessed nigger and also liked politics and stuff. she hated my personality and hurt me a lot but then she's still crying for me to come back even doe i literally left because she'd argue with me every day and always made me sad.
age 16 (now):
i basically became a sigma lonely aryan male. i made like 20 super cool and amazing online friends and i love them all so much even doe a lot of them hate me i think. i cant tell it's hard to tell. i struggle with attachment issues which is aryan as fuck because i just get attached to any girl who gives me attention, but i haven't talked to or tried dating a girl (all online btw) for like 2 weeks so i've basically stopped. one. girl wanted to date me but she said the problem is that im not hecking nordic as fuck. im greek so im olive skinned (indian) and basically that was my hecking downfall. she was so cool and everything and i wish things were different

anyways the basic moral of the story is that im a retard spergcel and i want YOU to become my friend o algo.

there's a lot of cool and interesting information (that nobody cares about) that i left out because it's too much to talk about
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Gemerald aryan germanic life.
 
I found this disturbing note in your secret journal. Are you okay?

i'm an abortion, my dreams are abortions
and i'm crawling inside of them
i'm inside someone's body and i can't breathe
there are other people inside of here too
and i'm suffocating in the guts
i always use a ruler to draw circles
and i took the kalms but they made it worse
and it won't stop and i'm just exhausted
i can't lose my scholarship! i can't lose my scholarship!
my thoughts are racing but my mind is moving so slowly
and i can feel every nerve under my scalp
crawling across my skull like electric spaghetti screaming
screaming in agony as their last shred of hope is completely annihilated forever
i obsess about my dog, i can't leave him at home, he'll pee in my shoes
i played with the padlock so many times, so many times
i have to shake the one leg
the same amount of times as the other leg
or i'll start crying again
and then i'll shake uncontrollably and scare the dog
and then he'll pee all over everything
and i'll never get the dog pee out of the pantyhose
and then everyone in the world will hate me
i'm surrounded by people that hate me
and i think i'm gonna pass out again
i need to make more affirmations, where's the sticky notes?
i keep them in the exact same place and they're not there!
i drink gallons of water and my mouth feels so dry
when i was younger i let the dog lick me down there
and i feel really bad about it
and i tried using instagram
but it keeps logging into my other social networking accounts
i try to make a list of affirmations
but i have to keep erasing them and starting again
i have to write them over and over again
because i don't want people to think i'm a slob
i can feel my tongue..
i can feel my tongue squirming around in my mouth like a worm
there's a worm in my mouth and it just tells lies and lies
and i wish i could just fast-forward it all and get it over with
there's amoebas crawling all over me
and i'm running out of rubber gloves
i wish i could just take my entire head apart like an appliance
and rinse each individual part with vinegar
the brain lock didn't help, nothing helps
hold on, i need to clean my teeth again
i need to clean them every 500 words
oh god, the dog peed on the hardwood
i went to a restaurant and i couldn't eat the food
because the waiter touched it and now it's diseased
i put it in the microwave to try to kill the disease
but it didn't work and now i have a headache
and i feel like i'm dreaming
i got the costco hearing aids and now i feel sick
and i'm spacing out and snapchat fucked me up for life
and the abilify makes everything feel wet
but the effexor makes the surfaces feel peaceful again
and my mouth makes whiny puppy sounds
and it's so humiliating because i sound like a clown
and everybody is laughing at me in their heads
i can feel a pseudo-seizure coming.. !
 
I found this disturbing note in your secret journal. Are you okay?

i'm an abortion, my dreams are abortions
and i'm crawling inside of them
i'm inside someone's body and i can't breathe
there are other people inside of here too
and i'm suffocating in the guts
i always use a ruler to draw circles
and i took the kalms but they made it worse
and it won't stop and i'm just exhausted
i can't lose my scholarship! i can't lose my scholarship!
my thoughts are racing but my mind is moving so slowly
and i can feel every nerve under my scalp
crawling across my skull like electric spaghetti screaming
screaming in agony as their last shred of hope is completely annihilated forever
i obsess about my dog, i can't leave him at home, he'll pee in my shoes
i played with the padlock so many times, so many times
i have to shake the one leg
the same amount of times as the other leg
or i'll start crying again
and then i'll shake uncontrollably and scare the dog
and then he'll pee all over everything
and i'll never get the dog pee out of the pantyhose
and then everyone in the world will hate me
i'm surrounded by people that hate me
and i think i'm gonna pass out again
i need to make more affirmations, where's the sticky notes?
i keep them in the exact same place and they're not there!
i drink gallons of water and my mouth feels so dry
when i was younger i let the dog lick me down there
and i feel really bad about it
and i tried using instagram
but it keeps logging into my other social networking accounts
i try to make a list of affirmations
but i have to keep erasing them and starting again
i have to write them over and over again
because i don't want people to think i'm a slob
i can feel my tongue..
i can feel my tongue squirming around in my mouth like a worm
there's a worm in my mouth and it just tells lies and lies
and i wish i could just fast-forward it all and get it over with
there's amoebas crawling all over me
and i'm running out of rubber gloves
i wish i could just take my entire head apart like an appliance
and rinse each individual part with vinegar
the brain lock didn't help, nothing helps
hold on, i need to clean my teeth again
i need to clean them every 500 words
oh god, the dog peed on the hardwood
i went to a restaurant and i couldn't eat the food
because the waiter touched it and now it's diseased
i put it in the microwave to try to kill the disease
but it didn't work and now i have a headache
and i feel like i'm dreaming
i got the costco hearing aids and now i feel sick
and i'm spacing out and snapchat fucked me up for life
and the abilify makes everything feel wet
but the effexor makes the surfaces feel peaceful again
and my mouth makes whiny puppy sounds
and it's so humiliating because i sound like a clown
and everybody is laughing at me in their heads
i can feel a pseudo-seizure coming.. !
 
NiggerRigger said:
I found this disturbing note in your secret journal. Are you okay?

i'm an abortion, my dreams are abortions
and i'm crawling inside of them
i'm inside someone's body and i can't breathe
there are other people inside of here too
and i'm suffocating in the guts
i always use a ruler to draw circles
and i took the kalms but they made it worse
and it won't stop and i'm just exhausted
i can't lose my scholarship! i can't lose my scholarship!
my thoughts are racing but my mind is moving so slowly
and i can feel every nerve under my scalp
crawling across my skull like electric spaghetti screaming
screaming in agony as their last shred of hope is completely annihilated forever
i obsess about my dog, i can't leave him at home, he'll pee in my shoes
i played with the padlock so many times, so many times
i have to shake the one leg
the same amount of times as the other leg
or i'll start crying again
and then i'll shake uncontrollably and scare the dog
and then he'll pee all over everything
and i'll never get the dog pee out of the pantyhose
and then everyone in the world will hate me
i'm surrounded by people that hate me
and i think i'm gonna pass out again
i need to make more affirmations, where's the sticky notes?
i keep them in the exact same place and they're not there!
i drink gallons of water and my mouth feels so dry
when i was younger i let the dog lick me down there
and i feel really bad about it
and i tried using instagram
but it keeps logging into my other social networking accounts
i try to make a list of affirmations
but i have to keep erasing them and starting again
i have to write them over and over again
because i don't want people to think i'm a slob
i can feel my tongue..
i can feel my tongue squirming around in my mouth like a worm
there's a worm in my mouth and it just tells lies and lies
and i wish i could just fast-forward it all and get it over with
there's amoebas crawling all over me
and i'm running out of rubber gloves
i wish i could just take my entire head apart like an appliance
and rinse each individual part with vinegar
the brain lock didn't help, nothing helps
hold on, i need to clean my teeth again
i need to clean them every 500 words
oh god, the dog peed on the hardwood
i went to a restaurant and i couldn't eat the food
because the waiter touched it and now it's diseased
i put it in the microwave to try to kill the disease
but it didn't work and now i have a headache
and i feel like i'm dreaming
i got the costco hearing aids and now i feel sick
and i'm spacing out and snapchat fucked me up for life
and the abilify makes everything feel wet
but the effexor makes the surfaces feel peaceful again
and my mouth makes whiny puppy sounds
and it's so humiliating because i sound like a clown
and everybody is laughing at me in their heads
i can feel a pseudo-seizure coming.. !
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marge
 
2chudded2care said:
birth:
my oxygen was cut off in the womb which actually gave me this superpower called asperger's syndrome. parents didn't let anyone diagnose me because le citizenship and education issues
Click to expand...
Apparently, I was the only of the 3 fetuses fertilized by IVF that survived because my mom thinks it's ok to have a kid over the age of 40 (it should be banned tbh), also when I was born I had my oxygen cut off by my umbilical cord.
 
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