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I have had this problem so many times before. The only solution was to block off my friends because when the school year ended I genuinely started to fucking hate them. I'm sorry this is happening to you, it's really fucking stressful especially if your friends can't understand what you're going through.i think i'm slowly starting to hate the people i talk to and the people i know
i mean it's starting to become a serious problem that i'm trying to not let affect the people around me but to be honest every time i see anyone i know in public i immediately get the urge to leave
i was at the gym like a week ago and i saw one of my classmates there and i literally could not avoid her it was so fucking annoying
why do people always have to pop my personal bubble that i have it always sets shit off with me internally but i never actually do anything about it
how come every fucking person i know has a girlfriend or at the very least someone that loves them and all i get is a tombstone, a folder of pictures on my phone and the bi-monthly text from my late girlfriends mother
our one year anniversary is three days from now and i hate the fact that i have nothing to show for it
i won't be going to prom, won't be going to the mall, won't be going anywhere and things would have been different if she was still alive
i wouldn't be rotting in my bedroom and ignoring texts from people for 16 hours a day if she was still alive
i had problems before sure but i genuinely have never been in a worse state and the loneliness will only get worse
i'm not sure how long i have until i end up breaking and taking my anger out on the people around me
but to be honest they deserve it for being happy while i sit at rock bottom and weep
Best of luck
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