You are possessed by a Demon.
Yeah I've considered that. I don't know what I could do about it doebeit.
Here's a list of solutions from least to most desperate
1. get some consistent exercise, take up a sport- lots of pooners feel their symptoms moderate when they get more familiar with their bodies, like muscles and stuff. I suspect proprioception plays a big role in this, but it might also be hormone balance stuff.
2. try to find a close approximation of the guy you want to be and somehow fix your brain by forcing it to recognize that he already exists. Friendzone him and never talk to him again for some reason
3. explore the fascination with this character in a healthy and socially acceptable way, like writing a novel from a web serial from his POV
4. meds bwc
5. make a "tulpa" of the guy you feel should exist and see if that relieves the pressure? Note: do not get niggerphrenia, do not become niggerphrenic. If magical negros start to peek their heads out from behind corners to stare while smiling innocently it is too late for you. If you decide to kill a bunch of people go for an old folks home
#1 I used to exercise a lot with dumbbells before my mom threw them away. I guess it did help somewhat with mood if I remember correctly, but I still felt like I was in the wrong dimension yk?
#2 I don't understand this, this only makes the feeling stronger.
#3 Yeah I was actually thinking of doing this but got sidetracked geg, not sure if it'd make it worse either doebeit.
#4 Already on a bunch, I'm trying to see a new psychiatrist for an MAOI, aka the boomer antidepressants that you can't eat yogurt on.
#5 I was actually thinking of doing this but even the people I knew that were against my poonerism said it was a terrible idea.
Thanks for the ideas though, I also considered hypnosis but I also got told it was a bad idea.
what does it mean to feel like a boy? for me I can't really understand what that feels like because I don't feel anything.
It's not really an emotion per say, "feeling like a boy" is an oversimplication for having a male identity; to internalize masculine pressures, prides, and shames. To feel in-place with a group of other men and not feel "like the girl." I dunno, I guess it's extremely subtle or nonexistent for some people.
@Soyteen Liker From what I've read you like boyish things it's not like someone stopping you from doing them, just don't do hormones I'm sorry but it's impossible to change sexes, I don't know what you think being a boy is but it's not fun and cool it's all the same shit just now you have a dick
I don't like boyish things, but I want to like them. It's like those autogynephiles that like the idea of being feminine more than the reality of it, the "solution"? To let go of the male identifications they have. Not sure if that makes sense.