Tsar Nicholas II
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- Mar 30, 2024
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This was a long, long time ago when I was a small boy. This was at my home, which is in the countryside, and which is directly next to a large field. This field had some trees interspersed within the bluegrass. Early in the morning, I had decided to sit beneath one of these trees and rest. I was on summer break, and the days felt as if they would last forever. I was shaded under this tree and I could feel a cool breeze blow over me from time to time. I was trying to think of something to do, and I think it's at that moment that I realized I was free. I could do whatever I wanted to do. There was nobody there—parent, teacher, or otherwise—to tell me anything. It was then I felt a deep warmth emanate from me. The kind of thing you feel while sitting by a fire. This, however, was not coming from any fire, but from me. The moment I had figured out just how free I really was it opened my eyes to just exactly what I could do. I imagined myself as a great hero, fighting in battles for my land and for glory. I imagined I was a respected scientist, discovering marvelous things that would benefit all mankind. I imagined I was everything, and that I was never-ending. With this great epiphany, I decided I would not do anything. I decided to sleep, and while I slept I dreamt the most fantastic dreams. I flew over everything and I saw it all perfectly. While I was flying a voice called out to me. This voice boomed in my ears and told me to sleep a while longer, and so I did. I flew into a small cabin in a grotto and stayed there for a while. When I awoke it was now early evening and I was still under my tree. I felt that same warm feeling for a good while after that day, but it did eventually subside. To this day I'm trying to find this feeling again, yet I have not.