It's basically like, mundane stuff guys do and the way they think gets me giddy and nonsexually excited. Like the idea of being called a "young man" or "lad" or "boy" makes me smile. The closest thing to it being sexual is me getting enthralled over the idea of being a male gooner that can't stop jerking off. Something about that feels like something I really want to experience even if most guys think it's awful and shameful.
It makes me really want to troon out a lot of the time. It feels like I love a part of myself I can't really access and want to know him. If I'm being honest, the main reason I haven't isn't because I don't want to but because I live with my parents that would throw away my hormones and other boy stuff.