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I’d like to start this out by specifying, I’m not saying anyone else isn’t a “real woman” because of the things mentioned. These are just personal things that make me believe I’ll never be able to see myself as a “real woman.”
I’ve spent 2 hours in the past day shaving my legs and there’s still hair… a lot of hair. My jawline sucks and would honestly look worse if I was skinnier because it would be more defined. My chest is flat and I don’t have curves like “real women” do. I hate it. There’s always more hair and I can’t just change my bone structure. I can do all the drugs in the world and drink all I want but at the end of the day I will never be who I want to be because I wasn’t born a girl… I hate myself for my self for being trans and I hate that most of my self destructive behavior at this point is tied to it. I can look at other trans girls and think “she’s a real woman and she’s gorgeous” and I see all these cis women with their nice bones, perfect eyes, perfect skin, and perfect chests…
knowing I’ll never get that. It’s brought me to the point of contemplating whether life’s really worth it at times and I can’t keep sinking on this ship I’m not even supposed to be in much longer before I drown. It’s gonna kill me one way or another.
I’ve spent 2 hours in the past day shaving my legs and there’s still hair… a lot of hair. My jawline sucks and would honestly look worse if I was skinnier because it would be more defined. My chest is flat and I don’t have curves like “real women” do. I hate it. There’s always more hair and I can’t just change my bone structure. I can do all the drugs in the world and drink all I want but at the end of the day I will never be who I want to be because I wasn’t born a girl… I hate myself for my self for being trans and I hate that most of my self destructive behavior at this point is tied to it. I can look at other trans girls and think “she’s a real woman and she’s gorgeous” and I see all these cis women with their nice bones, perfect eyes, perfect skin, and perfect chests…

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