This thread will sort of be a continuation of https://blog.soyjak.st/threads/i-feel-kinda-sad-right-now.20882/page-3
but for a tldr: i've been feeling quite like shit recently, as this goes on there's been suspicions that i've had autism, which is also demoralizing and makes me feel like shit
to...
update to this thread since i feel even worse than yesterday
i had to go to speech therapy today and i had to learn about my accommodations and stuff, and one of the reason for it was cause of autism (not joking, i was listed there) i've never been diagnosed like i've said, i asked my case...
im not really sure what to do, maybe there is something wrong with me and i just dont know what to do or what if is, maybe its just my shitty social skills and im just not applying myself, i see so many people even around just go up to a person they hardly know and just start talking without it...
that's not really possible as of now considering i go to school, and then going to college which will probably suck if not worse because it will probably filled to the brim of uninteresting people or some sort of flavor of queers
i guess i might as well say this, but when i do talk about "stimming" its mostly a soothing fidget i do which i guess could be considered that. but i kind of like to exaggerate it to an extent
i usually don't to people face to face to be real here, i hardly talk to anybody outside of doing it because i am forced to. but i've always been more "charismatic" when talking to people on the interwebs i guesss
i tend to have random thoughts over stuff like this even if it is not that significant. also i am quite nervous to ask as i've never been diagnosed with anything