Schizo Chris Griffin 'logging

Okay back to this actually being my ‘log.

For the past few days i have not been on here, I have been doing very much okay honestly. Not much new that i can like say on here geg, aldoe i will be switching college majors, since the one i have rn is absolute goyslop and I stopped enjoying any aspect of it.
Today has already been an amazing day though and i have not even been halfway thru it. I slept really well and had an actual breakfast, I was not late to any of my classes so far, today is a very chill day and i dont have anything to do after college except for late language class at around 8pm iirc. I have awoken to being unbanned which was also nice. I‘m happy! Things are going well.
 
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Today started out pretty shit tbh, I slept well due to several reasons but the morning was hard and I, as usual, skipped out on breakfast. (Now dealing with the consequences of THAT..) Turns out the project i was working on late yesterday isn’t even that important, and i can reach it in whenever i want. I will most likely eat lunch alone at college, since my 3 friends who arent in my group dont have classes on Fridays. They asked me to hang out with them after college but that depends on how i feel after classes.
I did mention that yesterday was a very nice day at the start, but when I came home I felt weirdly not that happy anymore, also felt nauseous so then I distracted myself with randomlanguageclass #826372. I think I ruined the past day for myself by smoking 3 cigarettes, which were 3 too many. It was probably the reason I felt ill and anxious afterward. Im starting to get into smoking again and i do not like that at all.
I hope today gets better too
 
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chrisgriffinirl said:
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Today started out pretty shit tbh, I slept well due to several reasons but the morning was hard and I, as usual, skipped out on breakfast. (Now dealing with the consequences of THAT..) Turns out the project i was working on late yesterday isn’t even that important, and i can reach it in whenever i want. I will most likely eat lunch alone at college, since my 3 friends who arent in my group dont have classes on Fridays. They asked me to hang out with them after college but that depends on how i feel after classes.
I did mention that yesterday was a very nice day at the start, but when I came home I felt weirdly not that happy anymore, also felt nauseous so then I distracted myself with randomlanguageclass #826372. I think I ruined the past day for myself by smoking 3 cigarettes, which were 3 too many. It was probably the reason I felt ill and anxious afterward. Im starting to get into smoking again and i do not like that at all. The evening went nicely though, I was talking to the person I’ve enjoyed talking to the most, recently. I’m glad and so damn grateful, that even though I’m not the best person sometimes, god blesses me with nice people and opportunities, that help me in life like that.
I hope today gets better too
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I didn't knew you smoke
 
chrisgriffinirl said:
Yeah its not really something i like telling publicly, but i rlly just want to quit because its not beneficial in any way shape or form
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Alright, here's a tip, every time you want to smoke, say out loud "I will not smoke" (or whatever the equivalent in German), that works for me
 
Ytsuken said:
Alright, here's a tip, every time you want to smoke, say out loud "I will not smoke" (or whatever the equivalent in German), that works for me
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Ugh its hard cuz all of my 3 close friends smoke and it is very TEMPTING. I will try to resist doe its very important not to give in
 
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I MUST quit smoking…it is really hard to not do it at least 4 days a week and ev&oe i smoked yesterday i already want to today kinda
that just proves how bad this shit is affecting me and how much more important it is for me to quit
I have also noticed i have lost some weight when weighing myself mid day, i weigh less than i did when i would weigh myself first thing in the morning before eating like a few weeks ago, I will try and keep it up.
Also, noticed I’ve been very tired today ev&oe i have had more than enough sleep, so i will sleep soon.
 
chrisgriffinirl said:
new entry in the log
I MUST quit smoking…it is really hard to not do it at least 4 days a week and ev&oe i smoked yesterday i already want to today kinda
that just proves how bad this shit is affecting me and how much more important it is for me to quit
I have also noticed i have lost some weight when weighing myself mid day, i weigh less than i did when i would weigh myself first thing in the morning before eating like a few weeks ago, I will try and keep it up.
Also, noticed I’ve been very tired today ev&oe i have had more than enough sleep, so i will sleep soon.
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Chew bubblegum instead
 
chrisgriffinirl said:
new entry in the log
I MUST quit smoking…it is really hard to not do it at least 4 days a week and ev&oe i smoked yesterday i already want to today kinda
that just proves how bad this shit is affecting me and how much more important it is for me to quit
I have also noticed i have lost some weight when weighing myself mid day, i weigh less than i did when i would weigh myself first thing in the morning before eating like a few weeks ago, I will try and keep it up.
Also, noticed I’ve been very tired today ev&oe i have had more than enough sleep, so i will sleep soon.
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wouldn't weight loss be good tho? i mean yeah, smoking is le bad but it sharpens ur mind albeit temporarily.
control ur urges.

chrisgriffinirl said:
I feel like bubblegum just makes me feel hungry, which i really need to avoid
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drink water to quench your hunger. i do this and it helps.
 
3 cigarettes a day isn't an addiction, stop it before it becomes one.
 
meijak said:
3 cigarettes a day isn't an addiction, stop it before it becomes one.
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I know its not a like bad addiction but i really need an alternative and to just outright quit, right now im back on my meds and its kinda working somewhat, i need to renew my prescription doe
 
chrisgriffinirl said:
new entry in the log
I MUST quit smoking…it is really hard to not do it at least 4 days a week and ev&oe i smoked yesterday i already want to today kinda
that just proves how bad this shit is affecting me and how much more important it is for me to quit
I have also noticed i have lost some weight when weighing myself mid day, i weigh less than i did when i would weigh myself first thing in the morning before eating like a few weeks ago, I will try and keep it up.
Also, noticed I’ve been very tired today ev&oe i have had more than enough sleep, so i will sleep soon.
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I quit because I'm just too stingy to buy more smokes lol
 
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