Chud Did anyone else go through the chud to faggot to chud pipeline?

[Brickshithouse]

No I won't elaborate unless asked.

 

[Nihilma]

When I said "faggot" in the title I meant it very literally, at least in reference to myself. I was basically a hardline religious conservative all my life, then I got a home internet connection and it went downhill from there. It was barely a year since I'd moved out of a secluded village and I had almost no exposure to the filth of modern society until that point, so when I tried one drop out of grave boredom, I was immediately consumed by it and in weeks it left me a godless husk of a man. 24 hours a day I was smothering myself with extremely stimulating porn and bullshit hedonistic politics to justify my addiction, resorting to more and more degenerate shit in order to feel anything; at my lowest point I was arguably autogynephilic and convinced by echo chambers that I was "always" like that and porn only made me "realise" it. My ideology was based around making my fucking dreadful way of life seem normal, I knew I'd fallen, but I desperately wanted to think I wouldn't be any happier returning to my old ways. Thank the Lord I never got on hormones.

There was no one there to knock me out of my stupor. This was before influencers, books, mentors, podcasts etc. dedicated to dealing with this kind of thing. I had to brute force myself out of hell with willpower alone. One sweet bonus I got from this is that whenever trannies give me the "I used to be like you", I get to use it against them. Politics-wise I didn't really become a "chud" until much later, I was still struggling to accept the reality that social progressivism and atheism are incompatible with the direction in life I was putting forth a great effort into following, but that part took care of itself because I eventually realised the right was right as I began "noticing things" and actually bothering to fully listen the bullshit politics I once used to validate my addictions, which is how I realised they were bullshit. My life has been a series of me falling for memes and coming back out with a reinforced sense of self and strength of mind. Not exactly going back to the status quo, but carefully building upon it, with only what's absolutely necessary and tried and true.

More or less the same, except I actually trooned out. I deleted all photos save a few to remind me of what I did. Never commited sodomy thankfully but sometimes I wonder how close I was. I unironically cannot believe how fucking low I got during this phase. It's a literal miracle I ever got out of it. I thank God for it because it happened without any exterior intervention, just prayer and waiting. But holy fucking shit just remembering

Upside, as you said, is that I have a good understanding of the process of trooning out, I got interested in the subject and I know how to dismantle the claims of the theories

 

[Soyteen Liker]

More or less the same, except I actually trooned out. I deleted all photos save a few to remind me of what I did. Never commited sodomy thankfully but sometimes I wonder how close I was. I unironically cannot believe how fucking low I got during this phase. It's a literal miracle I ever got out of it. I thank God for it because it happened without any exterior intervention, just prayer and waiting. But holy fucking shit just remembering

That's quite interesting, I'm sorry you got into it in the first place but happy you got out of it. Would you say that you had anything making you predispositioned to the AGP and porn addiction? And how did you come to refind God? I struggle with my spirituality a lot because of dissociation.

 

[Nihilma]

That's quite interesting, I'm sorry you got into it in the first place but happy you got out of it. Would you say that you had anything making you predispositioned to the AGP and porn addiction? And how did you come to refind God? I struggle with my spirituality a lot because of dissociation.

Honestly my friend circle in middle school or secondary education or whatever is before highschool had a bad influence on me when it came to porn. Regarding the trooning out part, I guess my relationship with girls was a big factor. For most of my teenagehood I was scared of girls, didn't wanna talk to them because I didn't knew how to interact with them. It's gotten way better now thankfully, but at the time, the only affection links I could form were with male friends. I think that didn't help.

Ig also the fact that sexuality and porn was an extreme taboo in my family didn't help.
Not that it shouldn't be frowned upon, but talking about sexuality as a whole was a no-go, and overall I think it's unhealthy. My parents thus couldn't help me since I kept everything secret.

On finding God again, honestly I couldn't tell you. I think I never gave up on God truly, even at my worst I kept praying and asking Him for help, and it just happened. It didn't happen instantly though, it took years of slow build up but it did.
Praying daily, reading your bible daily, and trying your best every day is honestly the best you can do imo. Even when you fall, remind yourself that God isn't a harsh judge who wants to incriminate you, but He is the father of the prodigal son who runs with open arms towards his sinful son once he gets home.

 

[Soyteen Liker]

Regarding the trooning out part, I guess my relationship with girls was a big factor. For most of my teenagehood I was scared of girls, didn't wanna talk to them because I didn't knew how to interact with them. It's gotten way better now thankfully, but at the time, the only affection links I could form were with male friends. I think that didn't help.

This is interesting. I remember thinking it might be related to the jungian ideas of anima and animus somehow. A lot of AGPs are nerdy spergs who basically want to become their own gf.

On finding God again, honestly I couldn't tell you. I think I never gave up on God truly, even at my worst I kept praying and asking Him for help, and it just happened. It didn't happen instantly though, it took years of slow build up but it did.

That's good. I pray sometimes but don't really feel it doing much, at least yet.

 

[Nihilma]

This is interesting. I remember thinking it might be related to the jungian ideas of anima and animus somehow. A lot of AGPs are nerdy spergs who basically want to become their own gf.

Honestly I suck at psychanalysis, my university fucking hates Freud.
We're more focused on CBT (Not the funny wikipedia page, cognitivo-behavioural therapy).
I personally think that there isn't a single way which leads to trooning out. I think it's mostly due to an inbalance in the sexual or relationnal life of an individual, which leads to an association of whatever problem you're facing to your identity.
But it can also be just a fetish, as seen with goonclown. There may be comorbidity. Honestly, the causes are numerous, but the end result is strangely always the same.

That's good. I pray sometimes but don't really feel it doing much, at least yet.

It's often in retrospect that you see the action of God yes.

 

[Soyteen Liker]

Honestly I suck at psychanalysis, my university fucking hates Freud.
We're more focused on CBT (Not the funny wikipedia page, cognitivo-behavioural therapy).
I personally think that there isn't a single way which leads to trooning out. I think it's mostly due to an inbalance in the sexual or relationnal life of an individual, which leads to an association of whatever problem you're facing to your identity.
But it can also be just a fetish, as seen with goonclown. There may be comorbidity. Honestly, the causes are numerous, but the end result is strangely always the same.

It's often in retrospect that you see the action of God yes.

I can dm you my story cuz I don't have the balls to post it here lol

 

[Nihilma]

I can dm you my story cuz I don't have the balls to post it here lol

Ofc, feel free to.
But I won't have a lot of time to answer it or read it through all rn.
I have my big semester exam on fundamental neurosciences in about 2 hours geg

 

[princessparkles]

@princessparkles what'd you say ?
I don't think I started as a chud, I don't know if I can be classified as a chud now, but Lord do I wanna forget my 15-18 years

you were never a chud
your pipeline was more religion than like political views and stuff but you’ve never been chuddy cuz that’s retarded n ur not retarded
imo

 

[Nihilma]

you were never a chud
your pipeline was more religion than like political views and stuff but you’ve never been chuddy cuz that’s retarded n ur not retarded
imo

You don't deny the faggot phase though.
I don't know about politics though, I liked to believe that politics and spirituality could be completely severed, unfortuanately I don't know how true that'll remain. Seems lile the intensity of modern politics kind of forces us to merge the two

 

[X Immigrant]

>though
>though
You may have avoided trooning out but you did become a cuck

 

[princessparkles]

You don't deny the faggot phase though.
I don't know about politics though, I liked to believe that politics and spirituality could be completely severed, unfortuanately I don't know how true that'll remain. Seems lile the intensity of modern politics kind of forces us to merge the two

i’m ngl , you didn’t have a fag fag phase but it was very close
i think you didn’t get far enough thank the lord
i was kind of dodging round it cuz i didn’t know if u wanted ppl here to know or not

 

[Pansexual Goddess]

yes, but then i went back to being a faggot (albeit its a frankenstein mix of chud and faggot beliefs)

 

[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

No, I was never really that Chuddy at all or even apart of the Skittles squad.

 

[istanbul]

i was never a faggot but I once thought faggots weren't all that bad

 

[maximus]

stealth tranny brainwashing thread

 

[Dr Frumpus Croid]

More or less the same, except I actually trooned out. I deleted all photos save a few to remind me of what I did. Never commited sodomy thankfully but sometimes I wonder how close I was. I unironically cannot believe how fucking low I got during this phase. It's a literal miracle I ever got out of it. I thank God for it because it happened without any exterior intervention, just prayer and waiting. But holy fucking shit just remembering

Upside, as you said, is that I have a good understanding of the process of trooning out, I got interested in the subject and I know how to dismantle the claims of the theories

This is depressing to read but, I’m glad you got out of that rut before irreversible damage could’ve happened.

 

[Nihilma]

This is depressing to read but, I’m glad you got out of that rut before irreversible damage could’ve happened.

Thanks, but honestly I take it as a recomforting proof that it's not an incurable virus, very far from it, and that the problem we're facing is a cultural problem more so than a intrinsically psychological problem

 

[poom]

i was never really chuddy but i have had a phase when i thought i was bisexual and my gay friends were pressuring me to come out. really weird.

after that i just became less tolerant of faggots or dykes

 

[(In)CelibatePsycho]

i was never really chuddy but i have had a phase when i thought i was bisexual and my gay friends were pressuring me to come out. really weird.

after that i just became less tolerant of faggots or dykes

More or less the same, except I actually trooned out. I deleted all photos save a few to remind me of what I did. Never commited sodomy thankfully but sometimes I wonder how close I was. I unironically cannot believe how fucking low I got during this phase. It's a literal miracle I ever got out of it. I thank God for it because it happened without any exterior intervention, just prayer and waiting. But holy fucking shit just remembering

Upside, as you said, is that I have a good understanding of the process of trooning out, I got interested in the subject and I know how to dismantle the claims of the theories

notice that the anti-chudcels are all closet troons

 

[poom]

notice that the anti-chudcels are all closet troons

obsessed faggot

thanks for the pfp anyways